Child Abuse Story From Molly

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Child Abuse Story From Molly

by Molly
(USA)

I've lived a life, full of misery, pain, and a colorful history of abuse. I'm happy to say that it has all worked out though: I'm doing fine now.

Ever since I was born, my mother was a heavy drug addict, and my father was a heavy alcoholic. Because of my father, I have a scar on my forehead, and had to get 40 stitches in my head when I was only but 3 years old. He has recovered over the years, and lives with me and my grandmother.

I am only 14, but am wiser than my years.

The only memories of my childhood involve beating of my mother and me, beatings from my mother, playing dirty 'games' with my mother's drug addicted friends, and being raped when she KNEW what was happening, and the neglect that followed.

My mother, my step-dad, and my younger half-siblings live at least 4 hours away from me. I dread visits to her house...for fear of the emotional and physical abuse my step-dad brings.

I kept this bottled up until very recently. My best guy friend, Ira, noticed my shakiness when my mother calls. I remember being at rehearsal, being in a tank top (because of the stage's extreme heat) performing my duet with him. Afterwards, his eyes traced up and down the scars on my arms, some by my own hands.

It was only until I had a PTSD (Post traumatic stress disorder) attack...someone thought it would be funny to lock me in a small cabinet to see if I could fit (I'm a small person)...I had a literal breakdown and clawed at myself, screaming and sobbing to let me out. Finally, I broke. I told Ira everything. The abuse...the rape...the neglect...everything.

I'm still not sure where to go from here. And I don't think Ira does either. I know God works in mysterious ways...and I can only hope I have this life to only make me stronger.

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Apr 10, 2009

The next step...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Molly, I will first say that I applaud and commend that you openly realize what is happening to you is beyond what you are capable of dealing with right now. You said you are dealing with PTSD attacks; these types of attacks are beyond what you and Ira can manage on your own. That isn't a flaw or a failure; it's an admission that needs to be made in order for you to get the help you really need. It's good that you have a friend in Ira to confide in; we all need that kind of support in our lives. But sharing with him was only the first step...a necessary step, but one that begs another.

You need to talk to someone about what happened to you and what continues to happen, both with the anxiety attacks, and when you go to your mother and stepdad's home. Consider speaking honestly with your grandmother and/or father. They are there to protect you and keep you safe from harm. They are also responsible to ensure you get whatever medical and emotional attention you might need. If you don't feel as though you can turn to them, then talk with a school counsellor or trusted teacher. Perhaps Ira's parents are another set of adults you can safely turn to.

Another resource is Child Help at 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453). They are staffed 24/7 with professionally trained counsellors who will listen to you and help you with your options. They are not a reporting agency, although they can help you through the process of reporting if you decide to disclose the abuse you've suffered at the hands of your stepdad (and possibly your mother too). Just don't keep trying to do this all alone, Molly. Doing nothing isn't an option either. You didn't&mdashand DON'T—deserve to be either emotionally or physically mistreated. You DO deserve to get help for the emotional trauma you now have to deal with. Make the call, Molly. At the very least, check out the website. You're worth too much NOT to. There is no doubt that adversity in a person's life can indeed make them stronger, but only if they have the resources they need to help them move beyond those adversities. Take the next step, Molly.

Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

Apr 10, 2009

Praise to your bravery
by: Emme

I praise your bravery, molly. These disclosures are always difficult, and haveing to disclose them with your friend is always quite difficult. I am glad that you have such a good friend that you can turn to in such a difficult time. Try councelling, but it's allright if it isnt for you. Remember, the night is always darkest before the dawn.

Love and Prayers,
Emme

Apr 11, 2009

circle of help around me
by: Maurice

Molly, you tell Darlene and visitors to her site that you are only 14, but am wiser than my years. That Molly is a powerful acknowledgement of your tender and teen years. You are aware of that now please put it to good use out of real love for yourself. Your friend Ira and yourself can only cope with the surfice levels of your feelings around your abuse. Darlene, knows that, You being wiser for your years can read between the lines in what she shared with you through the lines. She's a wonderful and gifted woman who can emphatise with you after all you've been through in your short life. From my reading of her comment to you she has your welbeing at heart. There's a circle of help all around you, Ira, your grandmother/Father. to name a few. I know a mother is a mother and the bond between a mother and child is the most natural of all human bonding. Your Mother needs loads of help with her problems, you can see that, Your Father seems to have gotten help for his drinking problem. If he has admitted he has a problem with drink than he is the one with the help of your Grandmothers wisdome/knowledge/love for you can put you in the right direction to seek help. You don't have a problem Molly, it was not of your doing the abuse carried out on you. Sadly you seemed to have been born into a drug/drink environment that of your mam and dad. Darlene has given you numbers and website to get help. look for that advice and help. your circle of loving caring genuine friends will help you.

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