Child Abuse Story From Missy
by Missy
I was about 7 when all this stuff started going on. My mom and dad were seperated and i lived mostly with my mom, my mom was dating a guy who soon became my stepdad, my stepdad was a nice guy, he would buy me alot of things and prety much spoil me but he had a totally different side to him. My mom at the time was working at night and didn't come home untill early in the morning. Which left me alone all night with stepdad, he would get me ready for bed which started with him undressing me, he would touch me, sticking his fingers inside me, after a while of him doing that he would put my pajamas on and then take me to bed with him. It got even worse when we went to lay down, he would start to touch me again and lick me down there, after that he would get me to touch him by beating me and slaping me in the face untill i said ok. All at the time i didn't know whether it should feel good to me or feel bad. He would tell me never to tell anybody "our little secret" and if i did he said that bad things would happen or that he wouldent buy me anything if i told. I never told because i was scared of what would happen. This all went on untill i was about 10 years old and my stepdad had been out of my life. I had never told anybody about what he did to me even though i knew he was out of my life. My mom had quit her job working all night, and would spen alot of time with me but every once in a while she eould send me to my dads house, my dads house was very small and he would smoke alot. At my dads house the only people there were guys, my uncle and my dads friend, they bolth lived at that house. At night i had to sleep in the queen size bed with my uncle, he would do alot of the same things my stepdad did to me, but one thing that really hurt me was when he would penetrait me, it really hurt but he covered my mouth and told me not to scream. By the time i 12 all this had still been going on, keeping it a secret from my friends and family members. The only good times in my life was when i was with my mom at her house. I was scared for life bolth phisically and emotionaly. I would cry myself to sleep every night and i felt like i needed to say somthing, i thought, what would happen if i told my mom what happened and if my uncle or stepdad found out?? But i didn't care, i told my mom and she was shocked, first of all because she felt like she had let it happen and second because she had brought these into my life not even knowing what they were doing to me. Right away she got the police involved and i kept tellin her i was scared about what was going to happen, she told me dont be scared your going to be safe now. My uncle had got 12 years in jail and my stepdad had got 10 years, im 14 now and i really dont know what to do, i go to my mOm for everyhing but i still have issues. At school i havent told any of my friends and i think its a good thing i dont, i have always been uncomftorble around guys and i've really never had a boyfriend because of whats happened to me. Im really scared about telling a guy whats happened to me, and what he would think if i told him. All i want right now in my life is to be pure again and i really wish that i can be a virgin again but i know that u cant take back what happens in the past...  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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