Child Abuse Story From Michael D

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Child Abuse Story From Michael D

by Michael D
(California, USA)

It all started when I was 15 I moved to this group home in california, at first it was nice, after a couple of weeks I say thats when I started being molested by one guy i refer to as f--, & that went on for 6 month, and during that tym I was also being phisicly abused by this other guy i name a---, I was forced to take a shower w/ the door unlocked, and wat I didnt tell u is that this was an adult group home, anyway I still suffer from this, I h8 all abusers I hope they all die a slow & painfull death, I am messed up for life!!! Every tym I c people who looks like my abusers I start to get anxiety, thanx alot f-- & a---!!! Because of u, I will be forever scard!!!

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Oct 01, 2011

Michael:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

I understand your anger and rage. You've earned it. I also understand that you want to "out" your abusers. All I can offer you here is a place to be heard about the effects of your abuse, and to say, please seek out some form of counselling in order to help you deal with what you were forced to deal with at that horrible institution. They betrayed your trust. They took advantage of your youth and your vulnerabilities, and they misused the power they had over you. You didn't deserve to be abused, Michael. You definitely deserve help for the fact that you were. Scars can and do heal, but they need to be nurtured first. If you continue to hang onto the anger and rage and hostility, those wounds will keep opening up, and it's YOU who will continue to suffer. And as long as you're suffering, your health and relationships will suffer. Every aspect of your life will suffer. That's not what you deserve. Yes, they ruined that part of your life. But you CAN make a choice to not allow them to continue to ruin it. You CAN walk along the path of healing and recovery. You deserve dignity and respect and love. You deserve it now, you deserved it then. Start by treating your Self with that dignity and respect and love, and seek out the help you need. You're too worthy and precious not to, Michael. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Oct 03, 2011

I am taking charge of my own life's destiny: I can: I will: I must : because I am WORTH it:
by: maurice

NOW MICHAEL THAT IS THINKING POSITIVE: Your self esteem/worth was wrongfully taken from you in that adult group home an instutution: These two sicko's chose you to redicule, abuse and make life miserable for you in this place: YOU: NOW and only you can take charge of your own life and destiny: You have taken the courage to search for and find Darlene's Safe Haven Site: Michael welcome to an empatising Family with the loving, caring, encourageing, supporting, affirming woman's heart as it's professional steward assuring us there is life after being abused: She is a victim into victory over her own childhood abuse: She is now empowering all her visitors to be in victory over their abusers: Her comment to you is so personal: Read it, act on it, beginning for you a journey of being a winner over those sicko's: I can only change myself: As others see me making progress I will benefit them to think about changeing themselves: Michael: Have a healthy mind in a healthy body: This will mean mixing with like-minded people your own age taking part in team sports and sporting and culturar activities:
I WILL I CAN I MUST
BECAUE I AM WORTH IT: THAT YOU ARE MICHEL:
Darlene re-assure you of that so read her comment and then get on about living your life to the full each day you jump out of bed and into the shower: I will etc Michael: ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF: I will etc Michael: I'll be a winner over those who took advantage of me, and abused me in this place: Good on You Michael follow Darlene affirming words to YOU.

Oct 14, 2011

you are so worth it
by: Jill

Michael,
You are so worth pulling yourself out of the "messed up for life" abuse these people imposed on you.

One thing I can tell about you from your story is that though you may have shut down, you don't run away from your self. You're very capable of taking charge of your life and though you are angry, you know you don't want to join the abusers. That's so that says a lot about your character. You want to make a difference by solving the problems you have encountered though you may not know how to do it by yourself.

At 15, you were basically a child grossly misplaced by the system in an adult group home where the members are poorly supervised and behave like gang members always trying to be on top of each other. They put you down with sexual and physical abuse to temporarily make themselves look better. But inside they're miserable 3 year olds, prisoners in their adult bodies.

I hope you reported all of this because the abusers aren't the only ones who are responsible for you being abused. The adults who were supposed to protect you let you down.
I have a 16 year old guy and the thought of him being put in your situation is heartbreaking. I was abused from age 1 to 20. Dealing with it helped me be there for my kids and not let the same thing happen to them.

You have the heart to know what's right, now take that strength and use it to help you get in touch with your feelings. Anger is what the abusers were taking out on you when they avoided their responsibility for their behavior. Anger never really solves a problem, it just grows. To shrink it, you can take that anger and turn it back into the feelings that you had to hide in order to survive when they (and possibly others) abused you. Connecting to your feelings all the time allows you to see and let go of your fears that are stuck inside your body so you end the cycle of abuse in your life.

Your life is what you make of it. Don't give up on yourself, be there for you because you are a beautiful person and worthy of being treated with dignity. Some adults in your life may have let you down but you can see the pattern that's going on now. Be real with yourself and you'll find mature healthy adults who are real and will be there for you.

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