Child Abuse Story From Meghan
by Meghan
(Location Undisclosed)
My abuse was from my step dad. He was around as long as I can remember and seemed really nice. Looking back I guess it was always going on, it just got worse when I was 11. I am now 15.
He was always too nice to me, always saying how pretty I am and always hugging and touching me too much. I remember when I was like 9 or so, my mom was at work and he was watching me. He had me sit on his lap all the time, but this time I felt his penis poking my bottom. It seemed weird but he was just talking to me about normal stuff. He would always seem to accidentally brush his hand on my butt and privates. This kind of stuff went on all the time. Sometimes he would lie next to me when he said goodnight. He always ended up dry humping me. He would then stand up and have his penis sticking straight out in his pjs.
It got worse when I was 11. I started getting my boobs and hair on my privates. One night he was doing his same rubbing thing when he started talking about how much he loves me and that I am special to him. He said he wanted to show me how special I was and make me feel good. He just suddenly stood up and pulled my covers off and pulled off my underwear. I was scared but I don't know why I did not say stop.
He started to use his mouth on my privates and kept asking if it felt good. He kept saying don't be scared you are old enough now. He did this about once a week. About the 4th time I felt like I really had to pee bad and told him. He just kept going even more and I had my first climax. I had no idea what happened at the time but now I know what orgasms are. I was so confused because I knew it was not right but it felt good. After I would feel sick and afraid that someone would find out.
This went on for about a year and then one time he came in my room at night and I just could not take it. I started crying and told him I did not want to do it anymore. He just said ok and then started telling me how much he loves me again. That was when it all stopped. Just like that. I never told him no before that and I do not know why. I feel stupid and bad that I did not say no sooner.
I am 15 now and I am scared to have a boyfriend. All of my friends do and one of them has fooled around with hers a little. I do play with myself sometimes but I always feel sick afterwards and think it is wrong.
He acts like nothing ever happened. We have a great house and nice things. I wish he never did those things, but I do not want for anyone to find out.
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