Child Abuse Story From Megan
by Megan
(Alabama, USA)
I am 29, now with three children of my own I have ptsd and it takes a toll everyday not trusting in myself and others thinking if I let my gaurd down for a min. this would happen to them.
My story starts when I was 9 my mother had married a man who seemed so normal kind and good father figure. She had just gottn out of the army. When Desert strm came around she was deployed as a ground troop. The first night she was gone as if I wasnt worried enough, he molested me that night and most nights until I told my mother in a letter when I was 15. He admitted it to her she asked me what did I want to do? It was was my chioce, have him arrested he would be taken away from my younger brothers. I would destroy my family or move passed it. For six years after that my mother layed in the floor and wasnt able to fight for me and herself. I wish I would have had him arrested now because he has a facebook page my family has been rid of him for a long time but hes remarried with grandchildren and is around others kids It haunts me everyday knowing that its possible hes doing this to others because i didnt make the right choice. I have alot of anger and guilt that wont go away. When he molested me it was always at nite he slithered in at night on hands and knees with a flashlight I wouldnt move I was to afraid i just would wait till it was over. The very last time he tried at age 15 I didnt stay still or quiet, I fought and told him if he touched me again Id slit his throat while he was sleeping. So that worked for me, but is it happening to someone else now? Legally I cant say or do anything now. He told me in our last conversation "God forgave me why cant you?" And my fovorite "I molested you because I was molested." So God may forgive him if he asked for it, sure but Im not God. Also, so what I was told is I will become a child molester because it happend to me! What person can truly believe that? I was so affraid in my young adult life when I have kids am I going to try to molest them? Now I know that was all bull. I am just oppisite, my kids are confined to me they dont even stay with family dont go to little ffriends house or ride home with a cheer coach. I guess its me not trusting anyone when its them being put through what i was. This truly is lasting a lifetime for me. thanks for reading.
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