Child Abuse Story From M
by M
My mother is an alcoholic and addicted to pain killers, and it has been destroying my family since before I was born. As the youngest child and the only one still living at home, I seem to always end up as her punching bag- not literally, because she has never physically hurt me although she has thrown things at me before, but figuratively because I am constantly put down. Nearly every night I am told that it's my fault that her and my dad fight, I'm told I'll never get anywhere in life and I'm told that one day my mother will 'be gone' or dead, and that it's my fault, and she has tried to kill herself a couple of times. Sometimes she will just look at me and say 'It's all your fault' when I haven't done anything wrong. I overdosed on tylenol once and tried to kill myself, and even though I was in the hospital for a couple of days she still wouldn't stop drinking even though she promised she would. I think I'll be stuck with her until the day she or I die because I feel too guilty to leave my dad alone with her. I don't think I'll ever be able to have children because I won't know how to be a good mother because my mother wasn't, and I don't think I'll be able to ever have a healthy marriage either because I don't know what a healthy marriage is supposed to be like. I just feel like there's no hope for me.  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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