Child Abuse Story From Lyn

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Child Abuse Story From Lyn

by Lyn
(Location Undisclosed)

I was abused from age 4 to 13. At first, my mother was amazing. She did everything for me. I loved her so much and I know she loved me. She was an RN (nurse). We were well off and even though I didn't live with my sisters, (I had 3 at the time) I was very happy. It all started when I was 4. I walked into my mother's bedroom only to find a naked stranger in her bed. (I always slept with my mom and she never brought her personal affairs home) I was so angry I walked up to her and said "I hate you." She slapped me on both sides of my face and told me to get my "ugly ass" out of her room. I was so afraid and bewildered. My mother had never even raised her voice to me before. After that she started bringing men around all of the time. It was a different one every night. I didn't understand what was happening to her. She started ignoring me and soon, I became a waste of space in her eyes. At age five she got married. He treated me horribly and abused me both sexually, mentally, and physically. My mother didn't care. My mom became sick, twisted and demented. She had this game she would play. She would say she lost something and I would have to find it. Often, she never even owned this item. I would not be allowed to sit down, sleep or eat until the object had been found. After a while, she would forget about it. I was removed from my mother's custody when I was ten, only to be placed back with her five months later. My sisters lived with my grandparents who loved them so much. I would request to go live with them but she informed me that grandma didn't love me. I wasn't pretty or good enough for her. At age six, my mother had a baby. My mom was as dead-beat as her husband and it then became my responsibility to raise her. I did everything for her. When I was seven my oldest sister tried to kill me and she molested me as well. By the time my other sister was born (I was 9) I was managing finances, shopping, getting my mom to the doctors, cleaning, cooking and raising two children. I did everything for everyone. I lost my childhood. When I was little my mom bought me Barbie dolls and she would tell me to be nice to them because they are the only friends I would ever have. I am now 14 years old. I am in foster care. I suffer from depression and I have attempted suicide twice. The worst part is, no one knows I'm suffering. Everyone thinks I am this strong outgoing person. I get straight A's in school and I already have a college picked out for me. I have a lot going for me and I am very successful. That's why no one sees how much I am hurting. I would love for people to read my story and perhaps give their opinions because it's the only way I'll ever be able to tell anyone how I feel. I just want to be happy.

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Apr 02, 2011

Lyn:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Opinions are just that: someone's opinion. And every single person has an opinion. Does that mean it could make a difference in your life? Only if you resonate with what the person is saying. You were abused in many ways at the hands of your mother. But also by the system. Your sisters were taken away from your mother for a very good reason, whatever that reason was. This is clear to me by what you've shared here; your mother has a history of abuse, or at the very least, was incapable of raising children. The fact that you were left with her tells me that Child Protective Services dropped the ball. The fact that you were removed at one time and then returned is unconscionable. At such a young age you were required to live as though you were an adult with adult responsibilities; none of which were yours to bear. Now you're 14 and experiencing the very deep emotional effects. It's time you turn the focus on yourself. You need to turn to people who can help you. You can't deal with this by yourself; it's too much. It doesn't matter what your friends or others think, Lyn, it's about how you feel and how you're coping. Reach out for the resources that are available to you. Talk to your school counsellor. Find out what's available to you. Contact one of the hotlines listed on my stories page, depending on where you live, in order to talk to someone confidentially. Just understand that you DO deserve to have someone to turn to. You DO deserve to be treated with dignity and respect. You DO deserve to live your life as a teenager. What is happening and has happened to you is not your fault. Your mother is seriously troubled, and she needs help. But that's up to HER to get that help for herself. It's up to YOU to reach out for help for yourself. Call one of the hotline numbers, Lyn. Lean on what's out there to help you. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Apr 02, 2011

Even animals would never treat their young so sadistically
by: Anonymous

Lyn, your mom is wrong. You are not ugly; you are beautiful. You are not unlovable; you are lovable and I'm pretty sure that even your grandparents love you as much as we all do. Don't ever believe any of those lies that she was spewing. Oh, and you were given a raw crappy deal because your mother is so twisted and screwed up in her own ways of thinking that she didn't even know how to take care of herself, not to mention be a parent to you. She didn't deserve to have such a beautiful daughter like you, but most of all, you didn't deserve to have such a cruel mother. Children should always come first. Oh, and playing those sadistic games and willfully depriving you of food and sleep really shows me how sadistic and ignorant your mother really is. If she didn't want to be there, then she should've had the courage to let your grandparents take you in instead of abusing you. you deserved so much better. You are not to blame for her messed up behavior; she's to blame because she chose to abuse you. You were the child; she was the adult; she had all the power and she misused it over you. Oh, and did I mention that she also even abused one of your sisters by grooming her to abuse you? Siblings should always play and have fun with their younger siblings all the time, not learn to hate their own siblings. Oh, and I really hope that you're really in a safe place now, that you talk to your foster parents and that you tell somebody you really trust. I also hope that you try counselling.

Apr 02, 2011

survival is the key
by: Ayase paul yukiya

Lyn, your mother was so nice to you. When you where little but when i kept reading that she brought men in the house and then you said you hated her. And.............
She is twisted like my mother, only an alchoholic.
And lyn, suicide is not the awnser to anything. Think of all the lovely things in life that you will enjoy.
But i am glad you placed your past behind.

Apr 02, 2011

Lyn
by: GPM

There are a lot of stressful isuues we sometimes have to deal with, even when we don't have a clue as to why the issues exist and why we are the ones who drew the short straw. You actually did way better than most in dealing with abuse issues brought about by your sister and mother.

Mothers and male friends don't mix with alcohol and daughters. The "snap" change you witnessed when you walked in on your mother proves that point. First of all, she should have been more discreet about her sexual activities- that's what door locks are for. But slapping you twice over the shcok and your response on what you walked in on tells the real story. She got caught- she was demasked- her false facade crumbled at your feet. You paid the price for her irresponsibility as a mother and alcoholism. That it wasn't worse is a miracle.

I don't know what to say about your sister, except that she must ahve been a very hateful person- she probably knew more about what your mother was all about than you and the burden of that knowledge was just too great for her to carry. Once again, someone transfered their pain to you, and again you didn't deserve it.

Think for a moment. You survived it. You are trying to get a grasp on it. You are sharing your pain and anger- not because it hurts you, but because you don't want it to hurt others. If I had to bet my last penny on wether you would come out of all this smelling like a rose, my penny is on you. Hang tuff, think soft. You are my kind of hero.

Apr 02, 2011

hey
by: Anonymous

Sweetie, you made me cry, because I'm sort of in the same situation as you, it just you got to get through it. Your very strong and courageous, and I'm truly proud of you. At the age 9, you were being the adult, that's crazy. I'm happy your alive as well because your story inspire other kids and teens to live on and make parents realize their mistakes. Of course there's some who will never admit to their mistakes but what to do?
Once again, thank you so much for sharing this with everyone because I'm unable to share my story,your a BEAUTIFUL GIRL I KNOW THAT FOR FACT and you got a big heart
Take care & Good Luck with your Future:)

Apr 03, 2011

You are so Brave: I really belive this is a turning for the good in your life
by: maurice

With the positieness in your written sad, tragig abuse story none of your doing but a Mother who needs loads of help herself: LYN, you wrote a brave account of all that you have endured, none of which is your FAULT; I am not to blame: My mother is a sick woaman and a sad person: She is not a good mother: The authorities knows she is incapable of loving and cherishing her children so why leave you in her care: The System is letting you down: From all I read Lyn I can empatise with your hurting all who have been abused in whatever form do empatise with pain: be it physiacl or emotional: Hi, Lyn, can I be loving and maybe even a bit bold to ask you to begin today thinking and going about having a healthy mind in a healthy body: Oh Lyn, I have seen the value of this in hundred of young teenagers lives over 35 years: Lyn, you view new horizon and your dreams in a whole different perspective: It will mean getting out of the house to take part with your class mates and close friends to take part in team sports, sporting and cultural activities: LYN you won't regret it: Take part in the physical education program in your school: A whole new world will open up for you: you'll make and have natural and true freinds for life from among your team mates: you'll have loads of aquaintamces who will make you smile when you meeet them: I'M SPECIAL: LOOK IN THE MIRROR HUG AND CUDDLE THAT INTELLIGENT, LOVING, CARING, ADOLECENT GIRL LOOKING OUT AT YOU: Why, because that is me looking out at me: Now Darlene gave you her woman's heart feelings with sound advice in her loving, affirming words to you: also you can sense the love oozing out of the others who wrote comments including mine for you LYN as you asked us to share our feelings after reading your true heart story

Mar 15, 2012

sad
by: bubu

i think thats sad that you had to go through all that but your not alone i was treat the same but u have a future that is good and use it dont waste it

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