Child Abuse Story From Luka1

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Child Abuse Story From Luka1

by Luka
(Location Undisclosed)

I don't know if you could consider this abuse, but it has wracked me for years, and makes me feel so dirty, so disgusting. I had gone to stay with my aunt in Arizona for a vacation. My cousin is two years older than me. We got along great.

One night we shared a bed, because we were only little kids. Well, he kept touching me and got me to touch him, and we were like mutually touching each other. He even got me to kiss and lick his "privates".

Then when I was ten or eleven, he made me show him my underwear, and pull up my shirt. It's hard for me to be around him. I mean, I have forgiven him, because I mean, what choice do I have? We were only kids. At the same time, I don't like to be alone with him. He provokes me into fights with him. Then one time I was messing around, and he slapped me across the face and shoved me to the floor. I was 13 at the time. I don't know if I'm just being stupid for feeling awkward. We see each other at family events, and have to be around each other. Neither of us mention it. But I can't forget. I feel so disgusting every time I think about it.

On another note, my brother and my sister and I were all abused by a babysitter. We were all around 3 and 4, and my dad had to work so he left us at the babysitter. I am a picky eater, and when I didn't want to eat what she made, she locked me in a dark bathroom with her pet snake. When my sister got sick and threw up, she beat my sister with a spatula. She constantly spanked my brother. I hate her for hurting us.

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Jul 24, 2009

Luka:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me, Luka.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

Jul 25, 2009

If you are feeling uneasy with what went on then it is abuse
by: maurice

Luka 1 most children regarded what you and your cousin did as innocent fun and games. But if one is older doing to the younger than is is alot more serious. It was a form of abuse innocent though it seemed then. Your cousin was using your closeness to get you to do things that were not right. being the older one he knew what he was doing and asking you to do. He may not have thought so at the time. Now what he did when you were older was deffineately wrong hitting you and asking you to show him your underwear. he is more aware now of wrong and right in that area and his sexuality. You are not stupid, you are being fare to yourself to share it with some one in order to safeguard yourself from any further advances he may take on you. I am sure it is not easy for you to tell someone close to you what he did becaus you don't want to get him into trouble. Luka 1 I am certain that if you say it to someone you really trust and who will listen and understand you. maybe outside both family circles, an aunt or a true friend they will advise you well. Be safe and be honest with him if he continues to use your closeness to abuse you. Tell him it is not right Now and that you will have to talk to someone about it. Now your baby sitter abused you and your brother and sister. that is for sure and far more serious. again talk to someone you trust to tell what happened and they will put you right and your mind at ease. You are doing what most of us did taking it in your stride dealing with it. you are okay, naturally you are dealing with it especially in the circumstances it happened. Trust and respect yourself and be safe. It will all work itself out for you. you are doing the right thing wanting to put an understanding ot it for yourself. so find a friend who will love and respect you and value you in your sharing such intimate details with him/her. I am sure as it seemed to happen so naturally at the time you will mature and grow beautifully treating it as a learning about the beautifulness of your own body and your sexuality. Don't allow anyone to do anything to you that you don't believe is wrong to you. Always believe in yourself. You are inteeligent enough to know right and wrong NOW. Great you found Darlene's site. She with her visitors are very loving of each other because they understand abuse having been abused themselves. She is a saviour for most to begin telling their story in the privancy of their own space and room. We all have benefitted from her comments and the comments of her visitors. I hope you do too. As you spoke your feelings on the site to darlene and her visitors find a friend who will put you right on all you've shared.

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