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Child Abuse Story From Little Miss Scarred

by Jodie
(England, UK)

I was never loved. Well it never felt like it. Not by my mum or my dad or anyone. My parents split up when I was three, and everything was turbulent for years after. I didn't see my dad at first for a long time. But when I finally did see him, emotional and verbal abuse started immediately. It only happened to me though. He loved my brother and my sister. Just not me. What was wrong with me? I will never know. It wasn't till I was seven that he started to hit me. He used to do make sure scars and bruises wouldn't be left in obvious places.

I remember when he first attacked me with his belt. His anger ran through him like a raging sea. He aimed the belt at my back and whacked it, hard. The pain was so intense. It was like nothing I had ever felt before. But before the pain could stop and I could understand what had just happened, he struck my back again. Only this time, harder.
The pain soared round my body in waves. I felt so bruised and battered. I didn't even have the energy to cry or to make him stop. I just let him carry on. I just let him take my innocence. I let him get rid of his anger, and he knew it. And because he knew it, he didn't stop. He beat me till I was 10 and then I escaped.

My scars are still present on my soul and, unfortunately, the memories will be there for eternity.

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Child Abuse Story From Little Miss Scarred

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Dec 22, 2007
 There was—is—NOTHING wrong with you!
by: Darlene Barriere - webmaster

Your parents are the ones with something wrong with them, Jodie. They are the ones who need fixing. You are lovable. You deserved to be treated with love and respect. You deserved to be loved and nurtured by your parents. That was your birthright. Your parents failed you. They abandoned you; and for that, they should be held accountable.

And just for the record, there was NOTHING you could have done to stop your father from beating you with that belt. Don't EVER blame yourself for that. HE was the adult; you were the child. HE had all the power; and he misused that power. It wasn't your fault, Jodie, it wasn't your fault. Keep telling yourself that, because it's true. You couldn't have done anything to stop him. HE KNEW that, and used that to his advantage.

Yes, the memories will likely be there for what you call "eternity" Jodie. But they do not have to rule you. They do not have to continue to control you. They can only do so if you allow them to. You have it in you to take back your power. You have it in you to NOT allow what your parents did to you in your childhood to control or oppress you in adulthood. But you need help in sorting through all the emotional trauma. As I do with the vast majority of postings I make on story submissions, I strongly urge you to seek out some form of therapy or counselling, Jodie. You are certainly worth it.

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