Child Abuse Story From Little Girl Lost

by Little Girl Lost
(Location Undisclosed)

A survivor of child sexual abuse: 
I would like to share some of my story to anyone who has ever been convicted of child sexual abuse. I lost my "innocence" at 11 years old. You see, my mother had to take a part time job. My parents trusted "a friend of the family" to babysit my two younger brothers and myself. To make a long story short, the abuse went on for over a year without my parents' knowledge. I just couldn't tell them in fear that I did something wrong.

As the years went by, I started to have problems as a teenager. I felt alone, guilty and ashamed. This led me to withdraw from my peers in high school. My younger brothers were also abused.

I had my first anxiety attack at 15 years old. The "flashbacks" of the abuse became so profound. I thought that everyone was against me, even God. I had no one to turn to.

When I reached my early twenties, I was hospitalized for major depression and panic disorder. While in hospital, I shared some stories with other patients that were also sexually abused as children. I met one girl there who was always hurting herself. I even lost a friend and a fellow victim to suicide. I was ill for a long time.

I finally got help from the "sexual abuse crisis center". The good news is that I was helped with medication and therapy. I now know that God loves me and I didn't do anything wrong. How could I? I was just a child.

I just want anyone who has "ever" sexually abused a child to know that I forgive "my abuser" but I hate what happened to me. I feel that I "missed out of" a lot in my life. If anyone has ever sexually abused a child or has ever thought of it, please know that the child will be in his/her 60's and still have nightmares and flashbacks and will wake up screaming from them. You must know how many little lives you are capable of destroying. However, some of us become "survivors". Please, for heaven's sake, think twice, if you ever have the urge to molest a child. You must know that there is help out there for you too. Please, please, no more abuse, to any child. I will pray for you.

Little Girl Lost

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