Child Abuse Story From Linda1

by Linda
(Location Undisclosed)

When I was 30 I started having memories of childhood sexual abuse. Up until that time, I did not have any memories and still don't have full memory of the abuse. I am 51 now and still healing from the awful abuse that my father put me through. It included sexual intercourse at age 3 and also threats and satanic worship. My mother was never aware of the abuse, and when I told my family, everyone thought I was lying about it. My father denied it and our somewhat fragile family splintered into many different pieces. I felt so guilty for telling that I have wanted to die several times.

Twenty years later, our family is still fragmented, however, the abuse is not denied anymore by anyone. The saving grace for me was and is my relationship with Jesus. My spirituality helped me get through all of the pain that I experienced. I have asked God many times why I went through such trauma and pain, and I keep realizing that as a social worker, I help people all of the time and many, many, girls that I have helped is because of the firsthand knowledge of what that type of experience does to you.

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Sincerely,

Darlene Barriere
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

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