Child Abuse Story From Lauren

by Lauren
(England)

I am 23 years old and I live in London. Im going to tell you some things that may be disturbing or you may not believe me and think I am lying but I am not lying I have been through traumatic experiences throughout my whole life since a young age seeing my father and mother arguing,partying,fighting,having friends over for partys,seeing there friends fighting and being violent towards each other.seeing my father hit my mother even tried to take his own life.i remeber him slashing my mum across the face with a knife because she found out he cheated on her.my father never contributed to any expenses through out my life not even a penny for school,food clothes nothing.he left my mother i was just 2years old.he met another woman and at the age of 46 died in a motorbike accident in London.

I want to tell you about when I was 12 I was in year 7 at school doing gymnastics and enjoying life with my sister and my mum!....my mother invited a man over in to our home after knowing him for 2weeks he was around age 25 years old.he came across like he was in charge of this house and made me feel very uncompfortable. as the years went by he became very controlling over everyone he would shouting calling me names like b***h,w***e,slag and a f***ing c*** everyday smoke weed everyday and drank alcohol after hes day job at a club.I remember him trying to turn my sisters against me and told my mum to kick me out of the house at age 15.I was doing well in school but could not concentrate because of the abuse I was receiving at home.he has kicked me pushed me to the floor and put he's fist in my face to punch me.he would throw water in my face and spit at me.my mother saw all of this but ignored it and said he can change I will get him help.I wanted to leave home and kill my self he would say I will give you money to leave and encourage me go take my own life.my mum still didn't care .I know you probably think I'm lying but I don't need to lie the truth needs to be told.this went on for 5years.no one to turn to no one would believe me and he had made out that I am reckless and bad.I am a child .no one taught me from right to wrong because my mother was more interested in what her man an is upto and I only learnt from what I had seen my parents do.my mum trys to be innocent in this all she had to do was tell the man to leave or put me and my sister up for adoption.no children should have to experience this. She has made me out to be such a evil person to hide what she has done.she knows that its wrong and will still turn everyone against me to cover up for her boyfriend. He made my mum throw me out at age 14 on the streets and I went into a hostel.I met lots of drug addicts alcoholics etc.I became an alcoholic for 3years I was so depressed had no one.

I have been diagnosed with post traumatic stress by my doctor and depression i am now having therapy over this and trying to get over the abuse I've had.im not telling you this for sympathy I just wanted people to know more about me and how ive lived my life. I want to become a police officer but I need to go to college for English lessons. I would like counselling for my depression and anxiety attacks that has stopped me from working but I have no money. I am 23 years old  i have no mother or father to turn to for even advice and support or just to be loved and looked after.hope you had a merry Xmas and a happy new year remember god is always with us even the people that sin and do wrong he has given me the strength to write this letter.

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