Child Abuse Story From Kyle

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Child Abuse Story From Kyle

by Kyle
(England)

well it started when i was about 4 years old. i used to remember being pushed down the stairs and once i remember waking up in hospital because my abusive mom had hit my head of the corner of the table.

i was sexually abused by my uncle when i was about 7-8 years old. i remember every weekend my mom would take me and my little brother to his house and when we were there he always used to ask if we wanted to play a 'game' which would usually mean me and my brother stripping down to our underwear and play fighting. back then i didn't know he was getting a kick out of it. one day my mom asked him to look after us for the weekend and i was just coming out of the shower when he walked in and touched my penis and he made me touch his back then i didn't know it was wrong but i remember feeling really dirty after. since that day every weekend he would make me do stuff to him which gradually turned into oral sex and then when i was 10 he raped me for the first time i remember after i just burst out crying and each time he did something he kept saying not to tell anyone.

when i was 11 we went on holiday with him and he made me and my brother do stuff to each other and he said that if we tell he would hurt us. after awhile i started to enjoy it - does that make me a bad person.

when i started learning about abuse in school i decided i would tell my mom but when i did she just yelled at me and then i got beat up about saying bad things about family, she grabbed me by my hair and chucked me down the stairs and then she would hit me with anything she could find like the rolling pins and belts she use to chase me around the kitchen with a knife.

im now 14 and im still going through the abuse of my uncle and mom ive only told 3 people what had happened to my and only my best friends belive i dont know what to do because im scared one day she will kill me.

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Jan 04, 2012

Kyle:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

You can't deal with this alone. You've got an abusive mother who got even more abusive when you told her you were being sexually abused by a family member. She has betrayed and abandoned you at your most vulnerable hour. Please contact ChildLine on 0800 1111. Visit their website by copying & pasting the following URL into your browser: http://www.donthideit.com

You don't deserve to be abused, Kyle. You most definitely deserve help for the fact that you are being abused. And just for the record, no, it doesn't make you a bad person for enjoying the sexual abuse. It wasn't the abuse you enjoyed. It was your body responding, which is perfectly normal. In fact, it is perfectly normal for a young male to have an erection, and yes, even an orgasm (females can also experience an orgasm during a sexual assault or sexual abuse) when he is scared, anxious or nervous. What this means is that your body betrayed you. Don't ever believe you're in any way to blame. Your uncle is the adult, you're the child. He took advantage of your youth and vulnerabilities, including your mother who seems completely ignorant to the signs and effects of sexual abuse, and who is so deeply disturbed that she herself continues to abuse you in ways that are very dangerous to you. Please reach out for the help you need. Call the number. You deserve the help they can offer you. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Jan 05, 2012

The Horror
by: Anonymous

Kyle, I really hope that you're out of that house now, so TELL, TELL, TELL! Beating you up, pulling your hair, sexually offending you and throwing you down the stairs, what they did to you is abuse. so again, TELL, TELL TELL! Even if someone won't believe you, keep telling anyway until he/she will finally listen to you and help you. Children are gifts to be treasured, not abused.

Jan 08, 2012

abuse is not a secret
by: Rita M

Abuse is not a secret Kyle.It's okay to tell someone.You have done nothing wrong.You did not deserve to be sexually abused.There is alot of help out there.You don't have to live in guilt and shame.I wish you the best.
Rita M

Jan 09, 2012

we are here and we listen and care
by: cameron

Hay, kyle i am so sorry that you and your brother are going through this and have gone through so much very much on your own. if i was there i would listen and do something about it. "i'd give them a war they couldn't believe"-rambo, but there are people who will fight for you and your brother in the same way. close by at your school, hotline, police, fire, teacher, counselor, pastor, and etc. that will stand up for you and help you. they will also love you and support you if you need to just be there with them, talk, comfort, or let you cry.
i have been there i was sexually and physically abused until i was in my late teens. i had so much stuff done i had dissociated from it so much i couldn't even remember that it was my own family doing the abuse. i have been free from them for about 6 years now. something that i have just recently learned is that not everyone is like my so called family, and there are people that actually love and care for me. my life has been so blessed by them to actually see what love looks like. i know about the fact of enjoying it to. since a lot of things have come back to me now. i remember the abuse and enjoying it and feeling horrible like a volcano was melting me away from the inside. i can see for myself that it was because i was so desperate for attention that that was better than nothing.
i know its hard and scary to step out and but you can do it.
you are in my prayers

Jan 12, 2012

GET OUT,GET HELP NOW!
by: Anonymous

Dear kyle,
you are in danger of being hurt or killed by your abusive mother,and are not in a very good situation with your uncles sexual abuse.Don't worry if your family won't believe you or that they will be mad at you,you did or are doing NOTHING WRONG by telling someone (trusted adult)you may just be getting your family the help they need more importantly you will be getting you and your brother the help you both really need and the guilty people will be punished for their actions..

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