Child Abuse Story From Kristyn

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Child Abuse Story From Kristyn

by Kristyn
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I was sexually abused by my father and brother as a child. It all started when my mother passed away. I was 10 years old at the time. My dad started coming into my room every night and touching me inappropriately. I remember trying to resist his touches but he would always beat me up if I did that. I lost my virginity to my father at the age of 13 and somehow I think he got addicted because he did it to me almost daily. What's scary is that he would not rape me before I'd say yes. He'd always beat me up until I'd say yes. Sometimes he even ordered me to beg for sex. Not long after that I learned to obey and do everything he wanted me to do. I never resist him anymore (now that i feel really really guilty about it). He would often bring his "friends" home who paid him money so that they could have sex with me. My brother knew what was going on and would always cheer me up. I trusted him. One day he came into my room and saw my dad raping me. I thought he was going to save me but he joined the act instead. I was really depressed and didn't know what to do, I felt like a sex toy. The abuse went on until I was 21 and moved out of the house. Until now I equate sex with pain, and I am always uncomfortable when men come near me. Yes, things are getting better and better in my life, but I just can't forget these horrible memories and have been feeling guilty until now.

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Jul 16, 2011

Kristyn:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Let me be clear, you have nothing NOTHING to feel guilt or shame for. You were forced to say and do horrific things under threat of physical harm. That does not mean you consented. Always remember that, Kristyn. You did not consent. What you did what what you had to in order to survive. The shame and blame lies squarely on the shoulders of your father and all the men (and I use the term loosely, since real men would never do such despicable acts) who sexually assaulted you. And while your brother likely learned the behaviour from your father, he is still a sex offender. In all likelihood, all of them are still offending others. That's why it's so important to report what they did to you. There are very likely other victims. And just for the record, none of these child rapists had sex "with" you; they "raped" you. As a result, it's understandable that you have difficulty trusting men. Trying to forget the memories will not work. Circumventing what happened to you will not work; it will only serve to bury your emotions which in turn will adversely affect every aspect of your life. Please seek out some form of counselling in order to help you deal with what you endured, as well your unfounded guilty feelings. You didn't deserve to be sexually abused, Kristyn. You certainly deserve help for the fact that you were. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Jul 16, 2011

Such uncontrolled sadism
by: Anonymous

Kristyn, I can't believe that your mom would abandon you to the so-called care of that sick monster of a father and allow him to beat, offend and berate you 24/7...how dare she! Where was she all that time? Her job was to protect you from that sadistic beast! If that pervert didn't want to be there, then he should've had the courage to give you up for adoption instead of sadistically abusing and raping you. The path that he and even your brother chose is inexcusable. Oh, and did I mention that he also abused your brother by grooming him to offend you as well? That slimy dirtbag should be in prison with his slimy friends together for all those terrible crimes that he committed against you because you did nothing wrong. You are not to blame for his sadistic, disgusting behavior; he is to blame because he chose to abuse and offend you. You were the child; he was the adult; he had all the power and only misused it over you. Oh, and I'm glad that you're in a safe place now; I just hope that you try counselling and that you look into reporting that sad, tragic excuse of a man and his dirty, slimy friends and then throwing them into prison because, remember, abusers don't stop abusing until they're made to stop.

Jul 17, 2011

You are so Brave: I really belive this is a turning point for the good in your life
by: maurice

Yes, Things are getting Better and Better in my life truly begin to believe this statement of yours Kristyn: Your cry for help has been noted and etched on Darlene's loving good and great woman's heart: So from one womans heart to another much younger begin to take charge of your own life's journey: I WILL: I CAN: I MUST: because I am WORTH it: Kristyn AWLAYS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF: Great you found Darlene's safe haven site: Your with one big family now who with Darlene empatise with you in what that beast of a father put you through, forced you to endure, heed Darlene's words to you: That beast bullied you out of total fear to obey and do all he did to you and allowing other beasts to abuse and rape you: even the brother that you thought would protecet you: All Animals and need to be rempoved from society: I always ahve to refrain from writing my gut feeling as to what I would do with such beasts; Kristyn, I am certain you don't want them to rape and sexually abuse other innocent and vunerable you girls they way they did to you: Please, oh please tell on them: have courage, be brave, stay safe, be safe, You are very intelligent so stay in education or keep learning for your own sake: Kristyn have a healthy mind in a healthy body: Regain the power and the beauty of your body: value and respect it, cuddle, caress, massage, hug it: by being gentle and kind to it and yourself: have comfort bath's and soothe your body all over with scented and loving smelling oils and creams specailly available for you to pamper yourself: I am bautiful: look in that mirror, think positive things about yourself and say nice things about that body of yours I have a beautiful etc etc not I don't like etc etc; ballance the positive and the negative and you'll find the positive with outweigh the negative: Now get out there with your friends and like minded people your own age and gender: Taking part in team sports sporting and cultural activities: You will open up a whole new world for yourself and you'll make your dreams come true: I will: I can: I must make this your motto for life: because I am worth it; In conclusion Kristyn: download Darlene's loving comment to you: digest it take ownership of it and act on it especially whre she encourages some form of therapy/counselling: My motto I will etc etc Krystin

Jul 17, 2011

your will survive
by: kathy p

kristyn i myself was abused by my step dad and my brother and i still havent been able to understand why this had to happen why me i was just a baby why did my mom send me into the bedroom every morning to give him coffee before i went to school and she never asked one time what took me so long... now that i am older i know now she had to have known what was going on then my stp brother and wife came up one summer and i was forced to sleep on the couch were i wroke up to him on top of me then my uncle was watching us one night he put his hand up my shirt i ran into my brothers room and they told me to shut up and go to bed it seems like everywhere i turned i was being abused like i was put on this earth as a toy i went to church evry sunday as a child tring to find answers but i never did i just pray everyday that one day i can get the night mares out of my head so far they stay will me then when i was 14 i ran away to just get picked up my a couple that raped and beat me and got brought back to my home and was told by a judge if i ran away i would be locked up no one once asked me why i ran away they just saw a child that didnt like to listed but one day i will get threw this one day i pray and you will to i know it :)

Jul 18, 2011

im sooo sorry for you
by: Anonymous

i know how you feel my life was like that too now im scared of men and where im gonna move next im in foster care

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