Child Abuse Story From Kristen1

by Kristen
(Location Undisclosed)

I know what I am about to tell you is my own fault, but don't know what to do and can't tell anyone what's happening to me. I live in a rather bad area. I just turned 16, and admit I am no angel. I take drugs sometimes, mostly meth, and did have sex a few times last year with a boyfriend.

I was at a party one night, about 5 weeks ago, and the guy who had the party was a drug dealer in the neighborhood. I didn't know he sold drugs til that night. I didn't really know him well but he used to go to the same high school, but dropped out a year ago. I accidentally found where he hides his drugs and before I left that night I stole them. At the time I was pretty high and didn't realize what I took. There was lots of cocaine, ecstasy and meth in the bag I had stolen. Somehow he and his friend found out it was me. On my way home from school a few days later he grabbed my arm and made me go to his house. He and his friend kept asking me where the drugs were and when I denied taking them they started to beat me. They didn't hit my face but kept punching my chest and stomach. I was so scared and hurt I promised to give them back that night. They told me they either wanted the drugs back or 30 thousand dollars, which they told me was street value. It was a Friday and they told me I had to bring back the drugs by 8 pm.

I live with my mom and sister. My mom is a waitress and works Friday and Saturday nights because the tips are better. I got the drugs and went back to his house to give them back. When I went in it was just him and his friend. I tried to leave but he hit me again in the stomach and I fell on the floor. Then the two of them started taking my clothes off. I started to scream and cry and he kept punching me and telling me to shut up and put a knife to my throat. They both stripped me naked and raped me. They also made me give them oral sex. I must have been there for hours and was forced to snort coke. When they finally let me go he told me he would kill me if I told anyone or ever tried to steal his drugs again.

I went home and showered and cried all night. The next few weeks I didn't even go out, I was so afraid. My mom kept asking me what was wrong, but how could I tell her what I did or what happened. She never found out I was taking meth and drinking sometimes since she was usually working when I did. A week and a half ago I went to the movies with a few of my friends on a Saturday afternoon, and stayed at one of my girlfriends' house for awhile afterwards. When I was walking home he pulled up in his car and started talking to me and asked me if I wanted some meth or coke. At first he was nice to me, but when I said I was going home he grabbed me and made me get in his car. He knows who my mom is and knew she worked that night. He took me back to his house and tried to be nice to me at first. I was afraid and started to cry and he hit me again and told me to take off my clothes. I was crying uncontrollably but did as he said. He first made me snort coke again and raped me. He left me on the bed and told me not to move or he would cut me. I was so terrified I couldn't stop crying. When he came back in he gave me a glass of water and started talking to me like nothing happened. I kept trying to pull the sheet over me since I was still naked but he would pull it away from me and made me sit naked on the bed. After about a half hour his doorbell rang. He told me not to move and when he came back he walked in with his friend and some guy I never saw before. The rest of that night they took turns raping me and one of them even raped me anally. They finally let me go home around midnight.

I haven't told anyone what is happening and I'm afraid he will come after me again. I hardly go out since, only to go to school and have even stayed home a few times from school telling my mom I'm sick. If I tell someone what's going on I'm afraid he will hurt me or my mom and sister who is only 13. His house is only about a mile from where I live and I even go to school a different way so I don't run into him. Both times I was raped he told me he knows where I live, before he let me go. Now I'm trying to get my mom to move somewhere else but she said we can't afford it. I keep telling her nothing is wrong but want to cry every time she asks me. I'm just afraid they will do it again.

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