Child Abuse Story From Kathy1
by Kathy
(Los Angeles, California, USA)
My father I felt loved me very much and I deeply loved him. He made me feel good. He taught us manners, values of money, he was very funny and he took us on trips. My mother never showed affection and was pretty much always mad. My dad hid her from me and would tickle me or he would bring me away from my friends, make my brother watch TV in front of us and he would tickle me. I was never told about boundaries when it came to my body but I sure knew the spots that felt good before I was even in school. The day I graduated kindergarten, my dad hurt me for the first time. The thing pushed against my feel good part and that hurt. I felt fear. Dad let me lick the thing and told me what a good girl I was. By now I was told the government would take him if I told anyone. We were VERY close by now. My mom left us with my dad, and he told me we would be like husband and wife. I was happy and scared. I was 11.
By 12 my dad met a lady and I felt hurt. I ran away to my aunt's house who I loved like a mom. She was so good to me. She asked me why I ran away even though my dad and I were so close. I told her I was his wife and all the rest. My aunt told me that was wrong and to never tell anyone. She told me to talk to Dad, and he said it was wrong and he was sorry. My uncle heard all this too.
We all went to our river house for the weekend in August. I went to get a drink of water and my uncle grabbed me from behind, took me to the reeds and raped me. I remember my head saying, This is what I was made for. It will never end. He threatened me and his family so I shut down. I loved my aunt dearly. She treated me like her little princess. I could never tell her that her husband would come in every morning and rape me and every other chance he got.
I was 17 and finally had to tell my aunt. She loved me so much I had to tell her.
My aunt called me every name in the book. I got kicked into the street with nothing but tears. I ended up doing porn until I was 33. I'm 41 now, clean and sober. The Program is my family. I hope this shows someone they are not alone. I'm a very strong woman today, a survivor. THERE IS HOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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