Child Abuse Story From Jordan

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Child Abuse Story From Jordan

by Jordan
(Perth, Australia)

Even though I have only been abused twice it still seems to haunt me no matter what. Im 17 now and I'm not excactly sure what age I was or who the man was but I must of been too young to remember. I have visions of being naked in a public looking toilet, but I thought there would of been witnesses or something. Obvioulsy not, but one of them is of a man raping me and my bottom really hurting. For a while after I would actually bleed a bit and when i would go to the toilet there would be blood when I wipe. The other vision was of me being forced to have sex with a girl about my age then witnessing her being raped. I have had interests in girls about that age because I saw what they look like at that age. There hasn't been sexual fantasies but just interests in them. I went through a stage of depression because I thought this was wrong and I told my best friend only last year about this (she is also an abuse victim). She told me its nothing to be worried about as long as its not sexual, if and when it is then I should see a psych about it. So now I don't worry myself too much about it. I think about it still but not as much.

Thanks for reading and if you have been in a similar situation where you don't remember the person or certain things, you are not alone and your not a liar. If it affects you see a councillor or a psych. Don't suffer in silence.

Darlene Barriere: author. speaker. survivor. coach

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Apr 20, 2011

Jordan:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

You HAVE been affected by what happened to you. You might not know yet the full effects, but it sounds as though the memories are starting to re-surface. It's not unusual to repress memories that are traumatic. And it's not unusual for those memories to find their way into your recall as you mature and move into the various ages and stages of your life. If you find yourself unable to cope, I hope you'll take your own advice and seek out some form of counselling. Like you so brilliantly said: Don't suffer in silence. Thank you for sharing your story and your all-important message with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Apr 21, 2011

Don't quit: Don't give up on yourself: Be a winner
by: maurice

Jordan: Please know what happened you was forced on you: In that toilet and your bottom bleeding: That girl was forced too, you were forced to have sex with her and then you saw her being raped: Real to you but not any of your doing: you are not to blame (ever) You sure have come to the right site in seeking help, well advice on how to go about getting help: Darlene sure has given you a comment worth acting on: You are intelligent: she has said you seem (are) re-living the late effects and the trauma of such abuse and fear: Yes the doubts about it all etc: With the help f counselling you'll be fine once you and your friend who knows what abuse is all about help each other; It is great she listened to you and is you best friend: You sure know it was not your fault, being of the inquisite age about what girls look like learned the wrong way because you were undercontrol by someone when forced to have sex with her and then saw her raped: You are naturally and normal now wanting you to build a friendship and relationship with the opposite sex: Now please act on Darlene's advice it will start a whole new chapter in your life: Hi another thing you could start is having a healthy mind in a healthy body: Oh yes no surer way to build up your self worth and self confidence: Getting out there being active and alive with your own age and gender taking part in team sports and sporting and cultural activities: Sharing your giftedness and tallents with others, no doubt you have leadership qualities to go with them too: You'll make real and natural friends with many aquaintances who''ll give you a good feeling when you cross path's: Jordan, act Today on the words of Darlene to you: I WILL: I CAN: I MUST Because I am WORTH it. That you are Jordan:

Apr 24, 2011

Greatly appreciated
by: Jordan

your responses are greatly appreciated. i now have the courage to get on with life because i have put it out there. i dont know if i can do anything about the flashbacks but i now have courage. thank you both soo much

Apr 26, 2011

glad it is not only me
by: Anonymous

I have a similar memory of knowing I was abused but not really remembering it. I do remember part of one time when I was a preteen when this guy tried to stick it in me in a public toilet, he was holding me down, but I luckily got away before he fully entered me...sorry to hear about your story...

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