Child Abuse Story From Jazmyn

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Child Abuse Story From Jazmyn

by Jazmyn
(Arizona, USA)

Well, it started maybe when I was 7 or 8. My sister (3 years older than me) and me used to share a room like sisters normally do. But one night, she asked me if I would try something with her. I was confused, not knowing about anything sexual yet. It seemed weird to me but I didn't undertstand. I just laid down and she kind of rubbed herself on me. It seemed gross to me, but I kept my pants on, until she told me to take them off. Then I felt even more gross. But I didn't tell her that. It happened maybe only on 5 other occasions but I don't really want to talk about it.

It seems so wrong to me.
We've never even talked about it before.
I'm 16 now and she's 19 and has a steady boyfriend of 3 years.

Just thinking about it makes me feel sick to my stomach.

Although I'm bi-sexual.
It's gross to think that my first sexual experience was with my own sister.

Sometimes I wonder if she thinks about it too, and if she feels guilty or anything about it.

I feel like I never want to talk to her about it.

I know we were just kids, but it still seems wrong.

We're good friends and sisters, but sometimes when we're together I think about it and it makes me sick.

I don't know what to do.

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Oct 23, 2011

Jazmyn:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

If you keep this inside it will continue to haunt you, and that haunting will have a major impact on your ability to move forward in your life. This is not the kind of thing that will just go away. You need to talk to someone about it. But not your sister at this point. Perhaps in time, but not just yet, because there's still a power dynamic and an underlying fear you're experiencing. Right now you need someone who has experience with child-on-child sexual abuse. Something you should know is that in all likelihood, your sister was herself sexually abused in some way, and as a result, acted out sexually, using you as a target. There is a difference between normal sexual curiosity between children of the same or similar age and of equal development. And though you did not object, don't assume that you were complicit or that you consented. You were not in a position to consent. Don't blame yourself. There's something wrong with your sister, something that she needs help with. What concerns me is that she will very likely abuse another child, possibly as a babysitter (perhaps she already has), eventually as a mother. You both need help. Talk to your parents. Tell them you're having difficulties and that you'd like to talk to a professional. Keeping this secret is going to eat you up, Jazmyn. Consider contacting Child Help at 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) in order to talk to someone about what you're now dealing with. They are staffed 24/7 with professionally trained counsellors who will listen to you. Visit their website by copying & pasting the following URL into your browser: http://www.childhelp.org/get_help

Reach out for the help you need. Call the number. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

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