Your stepfather didn't abuse you because of YOU, it was because of HIM. He hated himself and what he came from, so instead of doing something to make sure it never happened again, he chose to take it out on someone smaller, more vulnerable and an easy target. That's not on you; that's on HIM. Don't ever forget that. Please consider reading Matthew's Story of Healing & Recovery on this site. Thank you for sharing more of your story with my visitors and me.