Child Abuse Story From Crystal B
by Crystal B
I am 25 years old now and have 3 children of my own. Although my life now is fullfilling and I am happy, it wasnt always like this. I was raised by my alcoholic and drug addicted father. My mother left when I was born never to see her, untill I was grown. Anyways, I was introduced to drugs at 8 by my father. from 8 years old untill 12 I was doing drugs, being beat the crap out of by my dad and so on. Everything was my fault. we lived with quite a few people, all of whom got a kick out of seein me get beat! When I was 11 my dad ruined a friend of his new motorcycle, his friend got angry and decided to get even. Him and 3 of his friends picked me while i was walking home from school, and they raped me all four of them, because they were angry at my dad. At 11 I overdosed on perscription pain killers, trying to hide the pain. I went to the Texas Youth Commision (TYC)from age 12 untill 18. I then got out, got married, and started my family. Because of my past, and the things I went through as a child, I am the mother I am today. Everything I went through will be something that my kids never have to experiance. I was beat, raped, and emotionally abused all of my childhood. But what I have grown to understand is that it wasnt because of me, it wasnt my fault. Your past doesnt make you, You make you! I went through hell as a child, hating my life, wanting to die. I was removed from my dads several times only to be returned a week later when he had "cleaned" up. I have woken up in the middle of the night with strange men on top of me naked. I was made to watch some of my dads friends have sex, Other girls older than me that lived with us, would shoot me up with heroin, smoke weed with them, or snort cocaine. Once I got out of TYC I turned to drugs, I was really on Meth bad. When I found out I was pregnant on Feb 3, 2005, I stoped using drugs and have been clean ever since. I wanted to share my story, so that other people out there can know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, and you CAN be happy!!! My thing is this, I can not go back in time (wish i could sometime) and change anything, it happened, its over, and there is nothing to be done. I refuse to let something that happend 18 years ago control me now. I make my own path, my parents descions are not mine. I hope eveyone out there can one day find peace, as I have, with their past, and JUST LET GO!!!!  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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