Child Abuse Story From Cori
by Cori
(Location Undisclosed)
Craziness:
Well, I think it all started when I was apx in grade 6 or 7.. that would be about age 12? I have no memory of before that time...I sometimes wonder if i could be hypnotized to remember? but that perhaps there is nothing TO remember. I do recall having a wierd desire for one of my favorite male teachers to be my father...I was the oldest girl with one younger sister. my stepfather repeatedly touched my chest/breasts in the form of giving me back massages. He peeked in on me in the washroom several times and once feigned sleep in an excuse to fondle my genitals...over my underwear thank god. after that worse incident I finally began to hate him... before that i had extreme self doubt. my friend telling me he had touched her breasts spirred me to believe in my own experiences as being true and not my own doing or imagination. I remember being afraid of him mixed with loving him because he was the only dad i really knew. my own father being only a two week visit each year.
I told, tried to protect my youngest sister...who one day long after revealed she caught him peeking in on her too. she has her own story and it is complicated. suffice to say we are not now close and though i tried to support her there are strange effects on her that have made her a promiscuous odd sort of woman. I love her but have little to do with her.
I had children two beautiful boys fairly early and love them to death. i remember feeling uneasy about them being around my stepfather ... i thought he would only offend against girls but wasnt certain... so made my mother promise to always supervise him.. she failed and i went to my supervision only.. when i had my own daughter did the protective instinct kick in full force and i swore he would never get close to her. i have never let him meet her and she is now 9. my mother and myself are very strained but im not a horrible person and have allowed her in my life for my kids. they love her. she blames me for the abnormal relationship we have and the fact we cant come to her home... he is still there.
my oldest is 18 and has become a rebelious boy and has met up with nana and papa together now for the first time and although he knows the issues has chosen to start up a relationship with him. it crushes me. i wish i had had support and guidance and been protected when i was young. my mother should have charged him i know... i wonder if perhaps i should now... so many emotional issues.. counselling sessions...effects. i hope someone will identify with this story...as there is much more to it but if i helped anyone then that is good. we have to believe our experiences were wrong and not our fault.
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