Child Abuse Story From Cindy L
by Cindy L
why me lord why?? i sufferd emotional and physical and sexual abuse for 19 years i am 21 right now i have lots of meories my mum hated me and only me she gave my sister Hannah all the love but all the hate to me i had to do the housework when i turned 4 is when she made me do it if i did it wrong she would spank me with a leather belt everytime i would do it wrong sometimes she would get bored then come to me and start yelling at me for like no reason she would thearten to kill me if i did not do what she said my mum and dad divorced when i was 5 i thought i would be safe visiting him but i was wrong one time i went to my room there and i lied down tring to go to sleep when he cam in and started rubbing and messaging me down there started kissing me everywhere litteraly everywhere though i went back to my mums place feeling as guilty as hell i started trembling when i would walk it was really hard to sit down and i started changing by myself my mum started doing more physiacal stuff to me like if did something "totally wrong" she would use the belt on my face at school i wore long sleeves and and wear a jacket with a hood to cover my belt marks my mum didnt make up exuces for the bruises i did lie to the teachers my so called friends witch i later learned talked about me behind my back i went to my dads place again the same thing happend expet worse he told me to get in the shower with him ( i was 9 my mum didnt want me to go there or else she said she would say he would tell on her) and started touching me down there only this time he was squeezing it for some reason and licking it he dried me off i told him that i could do it but he said no and mostly dried me off down there well he was arrested for 5 years because he was tring to hide cocaine and weed and a bottle of beer and some ciagrets i was forced to live with my mum until my dad was out then i would start to visit him again my mum started making me take cold baths started making me sleep on concrete outside and if she caught me sleeping on grass i would be forced to march naked around my house inculding outside and be forced to sleep on the cold concrete naked outside DHS did recieve reports but would usally say services not recommend when i turned 14 my dad was out of jail i had to go to his place 5 days later there he made me watch porn and told me innapriote jokes and told me id have good friends if i told those jokes which i did i got into all sorts of trouble from that when i came back from my dads i was called a worthless horny litttle sl*t burnt with ciagrets she would use me as if i was her ash tray when i was 18 i went to my dads again and im trembling as im typing this but he raped me i i was forced to stay on the bed naked he was naked then 3 hours later he got dressed and left i was shocked i lost my virginity to my dad ever since i was 13 i was slitting my wrists then it hit me i was on my computer when alyssa lies came on i cried but hid the tears i finally told my college teacher my parents are in jail for 17 years im soon to be married and im expeting my first child my life is a lot happier now but i can not get the memories out of my head  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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