Child Abuse Story From Ciarra

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Child Abuse Story From Ciarra

by Ciarra (CiCi)
(Baltimore, Maryland, USA)

i am 11 years old and currently suffering from emotional and slight physical abuse.at the age of 9,i moved in with my mother this was the first time she raised me on her own along with my step father j-- and my newborn baby sister c--.every thing went smoothly for the first few weeks...i had a hard year in fourth grade,mostly with my peers but i got through the abuse didn't start until early fifth grade my mom got a dress for my aunt's wedding and i was build having bigger thighs but i;m not overwight and she called me fat and told me to loose weight i cried myself to sleep that night feeling worthless like i should get skinnier and starve myself...i am now suffering from anorexia from that situation.a little before that i was helping my mom carry back drinks at at football game i was forced to go to and i stopped to say hello to my sister.my mom turned red and got an evil look she screamed "get out of my way idiot"that was the first word she ever called me.just recently,my mom pushed me aganist a door and left red marks that lasted for weeks they looked like sunburns.she also got my strong step father to spank me until i bled for not listening to her.that same day,my mom called me stupid,metal,a"hole",shut the eff up,shut the "h" up,crazy,and threatned to cut my head off.i couldn't sleep for nights thinking id'e wake up dead she always calls me bad and horrible and a nightmare and a horror of a child and tells me i dress like a slut.she ignores my feelings and doesn't listen to how my school day went she puts down my goals in life she favors my sister and fights with j-- right in front of me and doesn't think about how that makes me feel.if i talk to her,just for a second,she sends me upstaris.i struggle in P.E. and math so i studied in math and improved and my mom doesn't know i feel like an idiot in P.E. and feel like i'll do something wrong,i tell her.but she never gives advice.i have to keep my feelings inside,i just can't take it.i talk to theropists but my mom tricks them to look like a wonderful parent.she says she'll take me to mcdonalds after this and in the car i tell her what i want and she never goes,ignores me and starts singing.she expects me to be perfect,if i leave the trashcan open,how i sit,etc.there is no proof i have any disorder my mom says i have...she says the way i act towards her is sinful but she's not christian...she hates god..she listens to comedy guys making fun of him even when me and c-- are in the room....but the thing is,i don't do anything,i dont get in fights,don't do drugs,dont set fires,dont dis-respect teachers,never called my mom a name or hit her,i'm so confused...thanks for reading...

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Apr 13, 2011

Cici:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Your mother has serious problems that she's taking out on you. That doesn't make the nasty names she calls you true; they're lies. Made up by someone who has problems. I know that it's difficult to understand, especially when you believe all the nasty things someone you care about and love is saying about you. But you don't have to believe them. Know that you are worthy of dignity and respect, and that you are lovable, because that's the truth. I urge you to contact Child Help at 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) in order to talk to someone about the abuse you are still dealing with. They are staffed 24/7 with professionally trained counsellors who will listen to you. They are not a reporting agency, although they can help you through the process of reporting if you decide to disclose the abuse. Visit their website by copying & pasting the following URL into your browser: http://www.childhelp.org/get_help

Remember, Cici, you ARE worthy. And you're a really good beautiful person. I can tell that by what you wrote. Don't ever change that about yourself. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Apr 13, 2011

Your mom is out of control
by: Anonymous

Ciarra, your mom is wrong. You are not stupid; you are not an idiot; you are not mental; you are not an a**hole (please pardon my French!); you are smart and articulate. You are not fat; you are not ugly; you are beautiful. You are not a nightmare; you are not bad; you are not a horror; you are a good girl. You are not worthless; you are worthy of love, dignity and respect. Don't believe any of the lies that she is spewing. Something's seriously wrong with your mom and she needs help, but you need help too, so the sooner you tell, the better, so please tell someone you really trust and keep telling until he/she will finally listen to you and help you.

Apr 17, 2011

Until Someone Listens
by: Bee

Don't quit talking.As much as it may make things worse in the beginning,it will make things better for the future.Your mom is abusive to you & you don't deserve this from her or anybody.Call the kids help line & talk to someone there.A threat may be just a threat but if your mom acts on these threats,you could be seriously injured.So tell someone until something is done to put a stop to the abuse being done to you.

You are beautiful no matter what weight or size you are.Hearts come with feelings and weight has nothing to do with the feelings you carry within your heart.Know that you are a good person & you are very smart to know the difference between your mom's abuse toward you & who you are as a person.Even if you make a mistake and mess up,it doesn't give anyone the right to abuse you for that mistake.We all make mistakes & feel bad enough all on our own for making them,without someone using abusive language & behavior to punish us for them.No one can save you but you when you are being abused by someone.This is the hard part-tell someone so they can help you & you can save yourself from further abuse.

You have the right to not be put down by words,to not be hit,to not be made fun of because of your body or weight.You have the right to be seen,to be heard,to be loved.You have the right to look after yourself.No one has the right to take away from you what you need to be safe.No one has the right to scare you with words,to make you afraid to speak or make you feel that you have no right to be who you are.

I do hope you tell someone because even though we love our parents,we need to look after ourselves if they can't do it.Telling someone doesn't mean you don't love your parents,it just means that you have to look after yourself so you don't get hurt anymore.I wish I had told someone when I was younger but I didn't.I kept it all inside & suffered for years by my mothers abuse.If I had spoken up,it would have been stopped & someone would have listened.

I suffered for years with anorexia/bulimia.It was a terrible thing for me to do to myself all those years because I felt I didn't deserve any better.It was only when I started to stand up for myself that I became stronger,knowing that I deserved to give myself better than what my mother gave to me.
Thinking about you,Bee.

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