Child Abuse Story From Christina

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Child Abuse Story From Christina

by Christina
(Philadelphia, USA)

Many people don't know how hard it is to live through being sexually abused. You run to tell people you think you can trust but they don't believe you. It hurts especially when you are only nine years old. Ever since I've been sexually abused, I've push men away from me.

For a long time I walked around pretending to be happy when really I could care less if I would survive another day or not. I live on knowing that no one in my family believed me or even cared about me for those five years I was gone. What makes it even worse is that it was done by somebody I thought loved me. I was just a little girl and had no idea about all the sick things men do.

I hurt and think about it every day. It happened 8 years ago and still it haunts me to this day. What stays on my mind is where to go, who to trust and should I even still be here. I find myself asking god every day: Why me? Why did my life have to be ruined? Then I learned that there are other females that have been through the same thing, and females still going through it today. And all I can think of is how I wish I could put an end to it because no little girl deserves to go through what I've been through.

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Jan 24, 2009

Part 1: I believe you...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Christina, the sad fact is that too many people DO know what it's like to be sexually abused. And they DO know what it's like to not be believed. So many DO know the deep hurt and sense of betrayal that you re-live in your thoughts each and every day as a consequence of that sexual abuse.

But Christina, not all men are abusers; don't EVER make the mistake of believing that. And not all sexual abusers are men; yes, there ARE female sex offenders. Nor does sexual abuse only happen to girls. MANY boys suffer from sexual assault; and though statistics reflect the number is somewhat less than girls, more and more evidence is showing that those numbers are pretty much EQUAL. But we don't know those real numbers because child abuse in general—sexual abuse in particular—is the most under-reported crime there is. NO child deserves to go through what you went through, Christina, no child.

You not only experienced sexual abuse, you also experienced emotional abuse. You were rejected and ignored by a family who was supposed to listen to you, protect you and keep you safe from harm. You were terrorized and exploited and corrupted by a man I gather (since you did not disclose who abused you) whose job was to love and nurture and support you.

And now the repercussions of all this has left you asking, "Why me? Why did my life have to be ruined?" Consider turning those two questions around to: How can I turn the pain of what happened to me into something powerful? How can my life be used in a way that will help others? You also asked if you should still be here. The answers are in what you said: "...all I can think of is how I wish I could put an end to it because no little girl deserves to go through what I've been through." What you do with your life now is what matters. You're still "here" in order to use your insight and knowledge and experience to better mankind (other sexual abuse survivors), and thus yourself, in some way. Posting your story on my site was a great first step.

See Part 2: There are people who WILL listen... below.

Darlene Barriere
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

Jan 24, 2009

Part 2: There are people who WILL listen...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Based on what you included in your story, I gather you are still an adolescent, Christina. If you are, I urge you to contact Child Help at http://www.childhelp.org 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) in order to talk to someone about what you endured. They are staffed 24/7 with professionally trained counsellors who will listen to you. And right now, you need and deserve to have someone listen to you.

Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

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