Child Abuse Story From CD

by Brent
(England)

I dunno if this counts as abuse in anyway, but I know that it's affected everyday of my life and still does to this day...

After my mum and dad split up, she met a new man, Shaun. They fell in love and did the usual and things were okay. He always resented my sister and me for not being his children, but seemed okay.

One day, I told him I was afraid of spiders. He grabbed the spider and put it in my face. When I ran away, he pushed me into the wall and told me I was pathetic, then threw me to the floor. My mum just shrugged. After that, things got worse. Constant threats and minor physical violence, but it was the emotional violence that hurt.

My stepdad pinned me to a wall, telling me I was worthless while my mum sat and watched. I started to think I was worthless, that I had no use, that if my mother didn't care, who did?

I contacted Social Services, and for a while things calmed down while they questioned me and my sister. We both told them what happened; she got hurt too. Eventually the case was dropped...not enough evidence to support the situation. That really devastated me, knowing that even the government didn't care. My father called me a liar...apparently it was all in my head, that nothing happened.

I went home and things got worse over the next few years. I would get threatened with beatings or strangled for just dropping a few pieces of dog food or I was pinned to a wall for forgetting to take the rubbish out. Meanwhile, my mum sat by discussing the day on her mobile. I felt even worse. I started losing concentration at school. I couldn't sleep because I thought he'd come in drunk and start yelling at me as he did once in the past.

Eventually he took things too far, even for my mum, when he threatened to kill my sister. He left for a while and things became pretty good.

He appeared at the door three days later, saying he was taking anger management classes. It didn't last, but Mum still took him back. I knew what it meant. A month down the line it would all start again, and it did. Just the small abuse first, being told I was a piece of shit and being thrown into doors or pushed over because I was in his way.

Then one day two months ago, he snapped when I made a comment about my mum. I said that she was annoying when she was ill as a humorous comment. He ran up the stairs at me, grabbed me by the neck and strangled me. I froze still in fear...I never could do anything. He threw my head into the corner of my sister's door then strangled me in front of my mum. That's when she realised he was doing wrong, and she kicked him out. He's still in contact but not together. I can't talk to him now, not after it all.

Because of this I still have regular sleeping problems. I have very low self confidence and I cower in fear the moment someone raises their voice to me. Sometimes I just wish I was strong enough to stop him. I don't want him to hurt me anymore.

I know by any means my story isn't nearly as bad as 99% of all cases here. I don't want sympathy, just needed to get it off my chest.

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