Child Abuse Story From Caylee

by Caylee
(Texas, USA)

Lost his Trust: 
I was raped just this year, 2007, by my uncle. I didn't really think it would get that far. He would mess with me a lot and tell me I looked sexy. He would tell me that I should put on a low cut shirt and say other nasty comments, but I didn't think it would get that bad. He offered me alcohol and money so I wouldn't say anything. He would ask me if I had a condom. The night that he did it, I didn't sleep at all. I didn't call anyone and tell. I just laid there in his house and cried. I cut my wrists in several places.

The next day, I went to work and I was just crying a lot, trying to hide my emotions. They told me I could leave. The next day, I went to school. My teacher called me out in the hallway and asked me what happened. I said I'm not supposed to tell or I'll get in trouble. She kept asking questions, which led to what happened. She told me she wouldn't tell anyone, but that was just to get me to feel better. She had to tell someone by law. That night, the police show up at my house. I wasn't home, so they told me parents what happened. I was scared to go home. I felt embarrassed and ashamed. I knew it was my fault. I could've stopped it, but I chose not to.

I immediately started counselling, but it wasn't helping. I tried to commit suicide and was still cutting, so I went to the mental hospital. I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression and post traumatic stress syndrome. I was put on 6 medications.

I've learned now that it's not my fault, and this will only make me stronger in the future, and that I have so much more to live for.

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