Child Abuse Story from Cassi
by Cassi
It is hard just to put this into words but I thought that maybe it would be healing for me. It started when I was very young ... probably around 4 or 5. I was beaten brutally by my alcholic father, to the point sometimes that I couldnt stand up or move to much after the beatings. And I was simply left there on the floor after each beating. My mother nor my brother ever came to my aid which overtime I determined it must be because they were afraid. I never truly understood why he only attacked me. The only conclusion I could come up with was that I was a mistake and on top of being a mistake my father never wanted children especially no girls due to his low opinion of women. There is so much that I could say but it would just be too much. But things that stand out to me are being 8 years old and trying to hide from him under my bed but he found me, pulled me out and made sure that I paid for that. the constant hitting and telling me I was worthless, all the hospital trips and failed CAS rescue attempts. I felt alone, I had no friends at school infact I was picked on everyday because I was quiet and socially awkward. Both in and outside of my house was a living hell. I wanted to run, but I felt that I couldnt. At the age of twelve I began cutting myself and considering sucide. But I never did, i spent a lot of my time thinking about the future and that things might be better in the future. Although with the nature of the beating i wasnt sure if I would survive. Like I said I was truly alone. But at 16 I met someone at my part time job. He was absolutly wonderful. I opened up to him and told him what was going on. he had me move in with him. I am now 18 almost 19 years old, living and engaged to the guy who moved me out and I couldnt be happier. He gave me the confidence to finally run and showed me what love felt like. For all you people who are being abused out there. Do not be like me, do not wait. Help yourself now, you dont need to live your entier childhood this way like I did.  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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