Child Abuse Story From Cassandra2
by Cassandra
(Brantford, Ontario, Canada)
I don't know how to heal:
I was adopted when i was almost one. My step mom played the system and said she wasn't with my dad, but yet at the time she was preggers with my brother, my fathers son...my dad was not allowed around anyone under the age of 16, for attempting to sexually abuse my older sister...so because my step mom played the system i grew up with my dad.
I don't know when the abuse started, my earilest memories are from when i was 5. My step mom hated me, she was phyiscally, emotionally and mentally abusive towards me during the day. My father was sexually and emotionally abusive during the night.it all ended when i entered foster care 2 weeks before my 13th birthday.
My step mom would make me kneel in the corner balacing on my toes for hours, she'd choke me, stab me,beat me with sticks, straps, forks, brushes anything she could get a hold of, i have scars all over...she'd call be stupid worthless, ugly and names she could think of she knew about my dad abusing me, she'd ask me how it was in the mornings, she called me his whore...i went to her and told what my dad was doing when i was 5, she didn't care. I was forced to clean the house and take of my younger siblings. I block alot of things out...im trying to remember to heal but im scared that maybe i was at fault and that is why things happened. My younger siblings picked up on the way she treated me and treated me the same...my father started his abuse with hugs kisses and tickles...he was so nice when people were around, he was mister perfect.he had full intercourse with me when i was six, he'd lick, rub me...he made me have anal and sex with other kids and men...im scared of the dark, of people, hugs kisses...i trust no one...in my first foster home they told me i would become a abuser because i was abused.
Im 24 and have two kids, i hate the relationship im in...my head is messed up, i just want to scream!! Im confused and lost...theres still so much more to tell, so much more to remember
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