Child Abuse Story From BeckiLou

by BeckiLou
( Location Undisclosed)

Oh my, where do I start?

BACKGROUND - Wonderful parents, 3 brothers, 2 sisters, very close to father, I mean 150% "Daddy's Girl"

ABUSE - When I was 12 years old, my uncle and his wife asked my mother if I could come to his trailer and keep an eye on his 2 children. My mother said "yes" but she would be down during the day to help me with the children. For the first week everything was fine. The abuse started out small with snapping my bra or reaching up under my shirt and undoing my bra. Then it progressed into him sneaking into the room at night time. He would go to the bathroom and then get on his hands and knees and crawl into the room where I would sleep. He then had VERY wondering hands, everything but raped me. He would make me sit on his lap with a "Hard-On", he would make me feel him and as I stated before he would feel me up one side and down the other - inside and out.

This went on for about 2 to 2 1/2 years and then I finally had had enough. I was tired of living my life in fear, and having to worry about every little thing I did and said in fear of telling on him. He always said "You know that your mom is going to believe me over you so don't waste your breath on trying to tell her what I have been doing to you." Or, he would simply state that he would hurt me if I told anyone. I finally told my friend what was going on. I was 13 and she was in her early to mid 20's. She told her husband and then he told my mom. My mom walked to my uncle's house and hit him so hard that she knocked him out of his recliner backwards.

My mom, dad, brother and I were put through HELL! After the law was called and after the investigation started I went into DEEP depression. I was taken out of school because of the depression. It took the court system 2 years to finally sentence him but, the whole 2 years he was behind bars I was able to get a grip on life.

What he did to me had affected me in SO MANY ways. I was scared to death of my dad. I was a daddy's girl and that tore my dad apart. When the case was being investigated, Children Services came to our house and went through my closet to see if I was "PROVOKING" the abuse. They questioned my own brother to see if he was doing any abuse to me. As stated above, my family went through HELL with me.

With the way he treated me and the things he did to me, I felt like I was worthless!

Today, I am currently married to a wonderful man who has blessed me with 4 amazing children. I have graduated from college with an Assoc. in Applied Science, Social Services. I told my dad that I wanted to grow from what I was put through, and I feel I have made my daddy very proud of the person I have became out of the abuse.

Are the effects life-long?

Everyday I live with the fact of what he did to me. Sometimes I still cry and still feel disgusted because of what he did to me. I am scared of the dark because every time he did something, it was dark. I fear men in general. I have to have a hanger hang off of my bedroom door because that is what I did back then. When he would try to sneak into the bedroom the hanger would rattle off of the door!

My wish is for this story to reach out to someone in need! I want to be able to help someone cope with the pain and heartache and feelings of worthlessness. If my story only helps someone feel better about themselves, then my wish came true!

My God Bless all who read my story!!!!

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