Child Abuse Story From Beckii

by Beckii
(United Kingdom)

It all started when my mum was in hospital after having an operation I would go to my step mums house ( she wasn't really my step mum but I called her that as she was like a mum to me) I would go at about 9am and stay till 10pm everything was fine until we had gone to pick her boyfriends son up he saw me and looked me in a strange way I didn't think anything of it at first until a few days later when he started to stroke my leg I pretended I had to go to the toilet to get away from him luckily when I had come back he had moved but later that night he came and sat next to me again everyone else was upstairs watching a movie I had stayed downstairs because he had told them me and him were going to get to know each other after they had been up there half an hour he forced himself on me and started to grope me he was kissing me so I couldn't shout anyone I tried to push him away but he was too strong he grabbed my hand and forced it down his trousers and made me rub his penis covered my mouth up with his other hand then started to whisper things into my ear like "that feels good" eventually I managed to get my hand out and I hit him in the face he then grabbed me round the neck and told me that if I ever did that again or told anyone about what had happened he would kill me he went upstairs to watch the movie with them and I heard him tell them I had gone home so I did.

The next day I went round after my dad had left to visit my mum as I walked in the door I heard a voice say "its just us two today they have gone to a friends house till 4pm" he then laughed and walked through to me grabbed my hair and pulled me upstairs to his room he pushed me on the bed and ripped my clothes off I didn't resist as what he said the night before had really freaked m e out he raped me until he couldn't go any more he left me there alone where I pulled my clothes back on and cried for hours. He came and got me at about half past three so that they didn't know suspect anything when they got back he repeated what he had said the night before about killing me if I told anyone and he spent the rest of the day upstairs.

My mum came out of hospital the next day so I made up that I had to look after her whilst my dad was at work so I didn't have to see him he left later that week and I felt safe again but he had taken my freedom away from me. It was like I was chained to a post I could't tell anyone otherwise he would come after me.

I started going back up there again everything was normal until one day my step mum had gone shopping in town and wasn't going to be back for a few hours I was sat watching t.v whilst her boyfriend was fixing the bathroom sink he shouted me up to help him so I went up but he wasn't in the bathroom he was in his bedroom naked waiting for me I asked what he was doing and he replied "exactly what my son did" I turned to get away but the grabbed me from behind and forced me onto the bed be made me perform oral sex on him and he raped me anally and vaginally I cried the whole way through it I though my suffering had gone but it had only just begun. After he had done he got dressed and said "my son said you were a good f**k and he was right" I looked at him with my tear filled eyes and quickly looked away again. Then he went down stairs and left me just like his son did I went down after I had put my clothes back on and he was laid on the sofa "come on lay next to me" he said I refused and sat in the chair at the other end of the room he didn't take his eyes off me for a full ten minutes so I went and locked myself in the bathroom until my step mum got back I made her think I wasn't well so she could take me home he came in the car with us so I couldn't say anything.

I didn't go up there for a few weeks I was too scared after what happened but my dad made me one day and it just so happened to be the worst day to be up there. My step mum was away in scotland seeing her family and him and his son were there I tried to walk out when I saw them and the way they were looking at me but his son ran up and grabbed me I tried to get away but it was no use his dad had got up and pulled my clothes off whilst his son held me down I shouted kicked and punched but eventually I got tired and I couldn't scream anymore they said horrible things things I don't want to repeat but they both took it in turns to rape me there was nothing I could do to stop them it went on for hours but finally they both got tired and walked away I quickly got dressed, ran home and locked myself in my room and thats when I started to cut myself.

Eventually my step mum and her boyfriend broke up and he moved out I rarely go up there now because when I do I get flash backs I still to this day haven't told my step mum or my family I was 11-12 when this happened I still see them in town or on the street and they look at me the same evil way they did when they raped me.

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