Child Abuse Story From B
by B, Otherwise, Name Undisclosed
I was abused for years, but didn't realize what was going on until it was too late. I was about ten when I realized I was a victim of sexual abuse and I still face the effects today 12 years later. The twist to my story is that I still live with my abuser. I will not be able to heal until I move out of my house. I can't move out until I save enough money, so everyday at work I am reminded of my motivation to move out. Everyday is a catch 22 for me because the abuse prevents me from feeling motivated at work and school, but I need to do this to get away. I was sexually abused by my own step dad. It started with "massages" which would lead to touching my chest and private parts. I was so shocked the first few times I didn't know what to think. This turned into a nightly occurrence for years. There would be little things that would add up such as a kiss goodnight that just didn't feel right. Or a tickle fight that felt wrong. Being a child I did not see things in a sexual way, but I knew something wasn't right. I told my mom about it, but she thought I was "making a mistake." The turning point for my abuse was when I caught my step dad watching me shower. I thought to myself that there's no way my mom can think Im mistaken here. I gathered the courage to tell her and she didn't believe me. To this day it is a subject off limits. As if it never happened. It is a true test of strength to face my step dad who sexually abused me everyday of my life. I just don't know how to get away until I can move out. Living with my abuser, and my mom who wasn't on my side is extremely hard.  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed. |