Child Abuse Story From Arizona
by Arizona
(Oklahoma, USA)
Im fourteen and have been a part of sexual and emotional abuse for alot of my life. When i was four my brother would moleste me. I didnt find anything wrong with it. I thought it happend to everyone. My parents divorced and my mother kept me from my dad for a while. Ive always had a great relationship with my mom. But my dad and i never got along. I hated him because he knew what went on but still stood up for my brother.
When i was eight i started seeing my dad again. I didnt think it would happen anymore but it did. When i was asleep he would come in. I would wake up stripped of my clothes. After a while i knew i had to make it stop. I would put board games on top of a stool in front of the door. That way when ever the door opened it would make a crash and i would wake up. It never really happend after that. only little things like tickling me would happen and his hand would "slip". It started happening to my friends that came over. And i didnt say anything. I couldnt. My brother would touch them and i would keep quiet.
Two years ago my mother passed away. And i was forced to move in with him. He treats me like his slave. he doesnt sexualy abuse me but he screams at me. When he gets home hes usually drunk and he'll be mad at me. After hes done yellings at me and throwing things he'll tell me he loves me. And force me to say it back. I cant say i love you to him. He wasnt there when i need him. He just ignored it. How do you ignore your daughter being sexually abused? Was my brother better than me and deserve it? Sometimes i feel like i have no reason to be upset because i was only molested. Other kids have been raped and beat. So i should jus suck it up and move on. My brother's 18 now and i pray he moves out soon. i hate having to see him. It kills me when we have to hold hands at the dinner table. I just pray this pain stops soon.
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