Child Abuse Story From Apostolic Angel

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Child Abuse Story From Apostolic Angel

by Apostolic Angel
(Location Undisclosed)

I an Apostolic Pentecostal first generation...I live with my emotionally abusive grandparents...it is better now because I used to live with my sexually and physically abusive mother and stepfather...I am a cutter and nine-year bulimic. My mom's new husband is sexually abusive to me also. I am so scared to go see my mom. I want to see her cuz I love my mom, but I don't know what to do.

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Mar 21, 2009

Tell someone...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

I know you love your mother and you want to see her; that's a very strong feeling that most children and youth experience. The mother-child bond often transcends even physical abuse. But your safety is important. Tell your mother what this man is doing to you, and if you don't think you can trust her to believe you and keep you safe from harm, then tell a trusted teacher, a school counsellor or a church elder. You don't deserve to be mistreated or molested. Contact Child Help at 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) in order to talk to someone about what you are dealing with. They are staffed 24/7 with professionally trained counsellors who will listen to you. They are not a reporting agency, although they can help you through the process of reporting if you decide to disclose the abuse. And you need to disclose the abuse. Things can never change unless you do. You are already crying out for help with your cutting and bulimia. It will take courage to speak up, but I believe you have the courage to do what you must do. You're certainly worthy of standing up for yourself and getting the help you so desperately need. As I said, you don't deserve to be mistreated, by others or by your own hand.

Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

Mar 21, 2009

Its up to you
by: Linda Settles

It is so hard for a child or youth to stand up to adults who abuse and misuse them, Angel. You have acknowledged the abuse which I a good start in the right direction. But it is not enough to save you from further harm. You probably won't know if your mother can be trusted with knowledge of the abuse until you tell her about it. You need the support of an outside source of help before you talk to your mother. It is possible for a mother to love her children but to be so emotionally damaged herself that she can't comprehend the damage that is being done to them by those who abuse them. Whether your mother believes you or not depends more on her state of mind than on the actual truth of what is happening to you. You are helping both yourself and your mother by doing what is right and getting help for yourself.

My heart goes out to young people who have to take adult responsibility in this way, Angel. It is terribly hard to do, but I promise you that taking care of yourself is the right thing to do. I think you know that.

Keep us updated on this site as you continue to work through your decisions. We care about you and want to know that you are safe. Call the number Darlene suggested, hon, and get the help you need.

You are in our thoughts and prayers.

Linda

Mar 22, 2009

Angels are all around us!
by: Mrs. R.

HEY. I HEAR YOU AND OTHERS FROM THIS SITE HEAR YOU. THERE ARE MANY OF US THAT ARE SURVIVORS OF SIMILAR FORMS OF ABUSE THAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. I AM TELLING YOU THIS SO YOU DO NOT FEEL ALONE AND MOST OF ALL NOT TO GIVE UP ON YOUR SELF. YOU MATTER YOU WOULD NOT BE ON THIS EARTH IF YOU DID NOT. BUT ONLY YOU CAN MAKE CHANGES HAPPEN IF THE RIGHT PEOPLE THAT CAN HELP YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING THEN HOW CAN YOU GET HELP.
IT SOUNDS LIKE YOUR GRANDPARENTS ARE NOT SUPPORTIVE TO YOUR NEEDS SO GO BEYOND THEM BUT PLEASE REPORT THE ABUSE.
WHEN I WAS A TEENAGER IN THE LATE 1960s I SLASHED (CUTTER) THE NAME THEN WAS SLASHER. TODAY I AM IN MY 50s WITH SEVER SCARING TO BOTH MY ARMS, STOMACH, AND BOTH BREASTS. I HATED MYSELF SOMETHING AWFUL. I AM MARRIED WITH TWO BOYS ONE ONLY 19 AND HAVE HAD TO EXPLAIN MY LIFE TO THEM BECAUSE OF THESE HIDEOUS SCARS THAT I WILL CARRY AROUND WITH ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. THINK ABOUT THAT THE NEXT TIME THAT YOU THINK ABOUT WRECKING YOUR BEAUTIFUL SKIN, YOU WILL GROW UP AND HAVE TO LIVE WITH THEM. THEY WILL ALWAYS REMIND YOU OF THE DARK PLACES YOU WERE IN ONCE.
YOU WILL RECOVER, YOU ARE FORTUNATE TO HAVE YOUR FAITH, I HAVE THAT TOO, I HELD ON TO IT TIGHTLY, AT TIMES IT WAS ALL I HAD. USE YOUR FAITH WHEN YOU FEEL LONELY AND AFRAID. YOU WILL FIND THE INNER STRENGTH TO FIGHT THIS BUT YOU NEED HELP, TAKE ALL THE HELP YOU CAN GET. AND PLEASE DO NOT BE ALONE AT ANY TIME WITH YOUR MOTHERS' HUSBAND.
GOD BLESS YOU.

Mar 23, 2009

angel you are a blessing to others
by: maurice

The huge burden of abuse is on your shoulders at your tender age as indeed we all were when it happened to us. Innocent, vunerable, scared, fearful, just accepted it. no where, no one to turn to in our close family surroundings. some of who just allowed a father/mother to do exactly as they please because they had the name being our Father/Mother. Many have ruined innocent lifes. Uncles/Aunts like wise in name whom one could not trust to tell. There is always one out there though whom we can rebuild our trust in. The time when we need that one most we're not aware of how to go about finding. Yet they are walking with us because the majority of teachers/religious men and women and family members are caring honest to goodness people in responsibility. We (you) I was unlucky to meet the bad one, sick one, not so nice one who let on they cared and loved us. Controlling us in our innocent state of childhoonness making our vunerability unreal. Oh Angel since finding Darlene's undersatnding web site I have emphatised with all who have had similiar and even worse abuse experiences than me. Giving you hope that there is help out there for you and me even if the start is telling or relating our own personal story to the annonomous person relating and telling their story. we are human being of flesh and bones no matter where the abuse happened us. Though we are one of of thousands we are one in the telling of our story. Angel we are family who understand each others pain and hurt. Go for help, please, it is out there for you and the beginning is using the number Darlene suggested you use.

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