Child Abuse Story From AnonymousL

by AnonymousL
(Location Undisclosed)

My child abuse story is very awful and it is unclear to me still. When I was around 6, my mom got a boyfriend who repeatedly raped and beat me, abused me emotionally, and used horrible ways to punish me. My mom was struggling and we needed somebody to help her with the bills, even if he was horrible.

I forget some of the abuse since it's so horrible. I don't remember anything before age 14 and have big memory lapses. Anyway, my mom was already mean to me. She usually yelled and screamed at me. When he came, my world was destroyed.

I remember when I was 15 and tried to runaway from home and he caught me. I was so terrified. As punishment, he used inanimate objects as sexual tools and tied me down and beat for his enjoyment. Some of it's so horrible it's hard for me right now to think about it, because I've always tried to avoid it, even now.

Once, I was so terrified that I was afraid I was going to die if I came home. So I told a student. He told a teacher who didn't believe me or him because they were so nice to everybody else. I was 14.

Sometimes I'd have bruises in my groins and thighs and I'd try to hide it by wearing long shirts and pants. Whenever I even mentioned the subject to my mom, she would scream and yell at me.

I was really an oddball in my class (I'm now 22) and my friends would make fun of me since I usually forgot things and always wore long clothes during the summer. I got really mad if anybody made fun of me and I'd yell at my friends if they did.

I now suffer from DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder, formerly called Multiple Personality Disorder {MPD}) and have 3 other disorders. This is because I am a survivor of sadistic abuse, an extreme form of abuse. I am in college and am struggling to not have a suicide attempt every day. I'm functioning but it's hard. I've not remembered all of the memories yet, and they are some I've not even told my therapist.

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