Child Abuse Story From Anonymous

by Anonymous
(West Virginia, USA)

What happens when no one believes you: 
I've read a lot of the stories on this site, and they are amazing. You are all so brave for sharing.

My aunt is a co-worker who helps many unlucky children out. I also had a family secret. It killed me to not be able to share it with anyone. All the pain buried deep inside caused many emotional problems in my young life so far.

My father went off into the navy. He wasn't always home to take care of us, and when he was home, he was never around. When he finally got an in-home job he became very unhappy. He seemed to take it out on me. I eventually became a family protector and helped out my brothers. He used to say he never wanted to be around me and used to wish me to leave. He would always say that you're the reason I smoke and you're the reason this and that.

I am older now and have learned to handle pain by burying it and putting a happy mask on. For so long it was the family secret. I know it was not right, but he is still good at it. He could say those things, and then turn around and be nice, so I never knew if it was classified as abuse or not. I loved him, but eventually he walked out. It was the most confusing life I had at that point and time.

Much of my life has included thoughts of suicide. I tried to get some help and better understanding from teachers and others, but when they talked to him, he made it seem as if I was lying. I never received the help I needed. Soon, after almost getting my life back on track, I was raped. I had to prove it to people, and they started believing me.

I still have trouble today, but at least I know I wasn't lying. I can help other people. I believe the children who come to me for help. I hope this inspires people and helps them.

Thank you all for everything and keep praying for people and myself and I will pray for all of you!

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