Child Abuse Story From Anonymous37

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Child Abuse Story From Anonymous37

by Anonymous
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I don't know what happened:
For starters, I don't know who it was, how old I was or what happened. All I remember is that it was dark and there was someone pressing down on me, rubbing against me. The next thing I remember is pain, such deep pain which I now know must have been penetration. Every so often these memories come to me. I still don't know what happened, as I think I was too young to remember it fully. It scares me when I think about it because aside from these memories, my life seems perfect. Maybe I'm just imagining these things but I had these memories when I was 6 and younger. No 6-year-old would imagine that, would they?

Now that I am older these memories often make me question my sanity. I find it hard to be intimate with people because of this dormant fear of what happened.

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Nov 18, 2009

Don't question your sanity; question how you can get help for yourself...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Anonymous, counselling might help you to unravel this, but try not to question your sanity. Memory is not perfect, but our ability to put things in perspective as we mature is a gift: Recognize that it probably did happened, but that whatever did happen is no longer happening now. You are no longer that 6-year-old helpless little girl. You are not being harmed now, in the Present moment. Until you can get some help, perhaps intimacy needs to be put on hold, not just because of the triggers, but also because the memories interfere with your ability to be intimate. Whether or not you ever remember completely, you may find counselling very freeing. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Nov 23, 2009

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by: maurice

Anonymous 37 remembering childhood experiences come in spurts and darts especially the one's we find it hard to make real sense of. Let light shine into that memory of darkness when someone took advantage of you and your innocent age. Many innocent things happens us as children, Thanks be to God the majority of these things are innocent and that is all they are. What seemed to have happened you was more serious and is still effecting your memory of it. Not recalling it fully don't be too concerned. Please sit down with a counsellor he/she will put your recalling into perspecyive for you. You'll be fine once you begin to listen to the counsellor. May I add this is in total confidence so don't have any fears of talking with one. Always believe in yourself. Let go too of that memory by broadening it out each time it comes to your mind. Don't dwell too long on the negative feelings about it. Think positive, act positive, be positive about it. Look in that mirror and build up your sefl esteem by making yourself special, unique, beautiful, wonderful now in your own right. Make beautiful the part of you that you feel was abused or penetrated. Hi, trust yourself, Hug yourself. I'M SPECIAL AND I LOVE ME. Make your daily mantra in front of the mirror.

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