Child Abuse Story From Anonymous in my 40s

by Anoymous in my 40's - Lost in Scripture
(Location Undisclosed)

When I was a little girl about 10 years old, my parents took me and my sisters on vacation up north to see my aunts, uncles and cousins. In the interim, they would come to our state to visit as well. However, my uncle began to sexually abuse me by asking me to stroke his private part sometimes while we were at the beach. He would take advantage of the waves and say that he needed to hold me to make sure I was safe. In the meantime, he would grab my hand to touch him down there. I didn't know what an erection was at that time but now when I think back, apparently he was having one. Several times I scratched him in his chin and on his arm. I threatened him that I was going to tell everyone in the family including my parents, his wife (my aunt), and his two children. He said that if I did, I would be in alot of trouble and I asked, what type of trouble, if I'm not doing anything but telling the truth? He said, wait and see, just wait and see. I did tell my other aunt (not his wife) and another cousin but my aunt said that she couldn't say anything because the entire family would be very hurt. There is so much more that happened thru my teenage years with this sicko and, I recently learned that he was sexually molesting his daughter in law (she divorced my cousin which is the sicko's son). I found out that his daughter in law was granted a large divorce settlement to keep her quiet. Who knows if he sexually molested his own grandchildren. I've spoken to cousins that live across the U.S. that came out and said they were also sexually molested by him. I've looked up to see if he has a record in his state but I don't see any. I believe my cousin (his son) has covered it up.

Then, my older sister had a husband, a police officer that struck me several times when I tried verbally to defend my sister. We had just gone out to eat and we were in the car when I said something and he began to hit me on my head, arm and leg. All that happened was that my aunt (the one that knew about the sicko) told him to leave her house. We were visiting my family out of state. My aunt then requested that I return back to my parents home and bought me a ticket back. This aunt unfortunately passed away 2 yrs ago. Never in my life have I been so depressed or wanting to leave this earth until now that I'm in my 40's. I am very unhappy and I know that I'll never be happy. Unfortunately, I've been married for over 26 yrs and my husband is bipolar. At times, he is verbally abusive and yes, he has kicked me. It is sad how much I've tried helping him thru these 26 yrs. I don't drink or smoke, or do any recreational drugs. I have turned to spiritual readings at nite and listen to symphony hall via sirius radio. That is when I disconnect and, I still pray for him and everyone else. I could have been a model at one time and possibly a nun too but didn't pursue it. I do hope and pray that when I pass away or when I am about to pass away, I feel a sense of peace. The peace I have when I lose myself in spiritual readings, scriptures and symphony. I now understand the effect sexual abuse has on women. It sure took me a long time to find out. Please, young girls, speak out before it's too late.

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