Child Abuse Story From Alice
by Alice
(United Kingdom)
It had always been me and my mum ever since I can remember. We were close, I remember that. And I remembered that I loved that time when it was just us. My dad hadn't wanted anything to do with me and I'd never met him, but it was ok. I liked it being just me and Mum. She had been really young when she had me and we were like sisters.
Mum didn't start going out with anyone till I was at least 10 years old. When I was 11, she went out with this guy called Adam. I thought he was really cool at first. He would play games with me and he would take me and Mum out. He was nice for a while, and I loved spending time with him. He built up my trust, and I remember thinking that it was like having a real dad.
One night, a couple of months after she had begun to go out with Adam, she left us alone at home while she went out with some friends. He acted strangely and in a way that he hadn't ever before. He sexually abused me. He touched me that night, and I knew it wasn't right.
The abuse continued until he forced me to have sex with him. I remember being so scared, upset and ashamed. I didn't want to tell my mum what was happening because I thought she'd be angry with me. It continued for many years. I was sworn to secrecy by Adam. He said Mum wouldn't want me if I told her what he was doing. So I didn't tell.
When I was 14, I got pregnant with Adam's baby. It was to be expected, as he abused me nearly every week. It was terrible and I was so scared. I didn't tell anyone because felt so ashamed of myself. Adam found out eventually because he noticed the small bump that has begun to form. He called me some horrible names and disappeared shortly after. I have never seen him since.
Mum had no idea where or why he'd gone. Eventually, I told her what had been happening over the years. She was so shocked and had no idea. She helped me through it, and now I'm upset that I didn't tell her before.
I had an abortion and went into counselling. They have never found Adam. I'm still scared that one day he'll find me and do worse than he had done in the past.
I am 20 years old now. My mum supported me amazingly through the whole ordeal. I think that's how I got through it. I am very insecure and still have nightmares now, but I'm in a relationship with a wonderful man who is so considerate of my feelings. He understands what I've been through.
I wrote this story to let people who are being, or have been sexually abused, that it is NOT OK and should be stopped. But to also let people know. And that you can get through it and move on with life.
Thank you for reading this story.
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