Child Abuse Story From Alexis2

by Alexis
(Location Undisclosed)

I am using a different name so as to avoid detection by my abuser. My abuse started when I was about four I think. My mother would find things I'd done (like walking into a room or looking at a clock) or invent things so that while my dad was at work she would beat me with whatever she had at hand. She would sit on top of me so I could hardly breathe while doing it, and if I managed to run she'd grab my by my hair and drag me back. When she was finished she would tell me that if I ever told anyone she'd kill me.

I remember sitting down reading a book (I was six) and she started screaming at me that I was worthless, she never wanted me, and she duct-taped my hands and mouth and put me in a closet saying she'd call some people that took away kids and then she and my dad would be happy again.

I don't know how long I was in that closet, it felt like forever, and when she let me out she said I was lucky, she'd changed her mind but if I told my dad she'd boil me in hot oil.

I tried everything possible growing up to please her. I'd clean the house spotless and she'd find dust and scream at me and beat me because I made her look like a bad housekeeper. She'd scream and yell at me that I was worthless, she hated me, nobody would love me, I was too fat, too ugly. She forced my sister and I to distance ourselves from my dad and constantly tries to guilt me out of seeing him now.

She'd hit me if I saw my friends, and say so many cruel things until I was crying, then she'd scream at me to stop crying, that I was so weak, such a baby. Or that if people saw I was crying she'd look like a bad mother. Irony huh? I thought of killing myself so many times but I stayed for my sis.

Now I am out of the house—Thank God—but my sis is still there and my mom has her convinced I'm bad. My sister has been sleeping with boys since she was fourteen, she lies to my mother and sneaks around. I'm so worried for her but I can't help her, and every time I get involved, my mom blames me for what my sis is doing. I am trying to get myself help in the hopes my sis will eventually get free of the brainwashing and I can provide a safe haven for her.

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