Child Abuse Story From Alexander

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Child Abuse Story From Alexander

by Alexander
(Location Undisclosed)

WE NEVER HEAL BUT WE SURVIVE:
To all the children of the world who have suffered these horrific atrocities, you are the bravest survivors of all humanity...while my story is mild compared to many of yours, the effects on me have done their share of damage and ruined my 54 years of life...no law on this miserable planet properly deals with these lowlife, scum perpetrators and no God has ever been there to protect us...I could not help but shed tears for all of you and myself.

My grandfather abused me as a child and it started around age four. He abused many kids, including my mother and sisters...gender meant nothing. I grew up not trusting my parents or other authorities as they let me down and did not keep me safe. In fact, they knew what my grandfather was like and yet they threw me into the darkness. Omission apparently denies any wrongdoings and they thought he was done with these behaviours.

My life has been ruined as I do not trust anyone...sexually I have always been dysfunctional and emotionally I cannot tolerate anyone near me...I have no contact with my family...I am a loner...I am angry and I have bouts of depression....I am lonely and I am sad...I have made a series of bad decisions throughout my life and find myself scared for what little future I have left...I have sabotaged any

or most of the good things in my life in order to control events around me...this way I am responsible for my shortcomings and no one can hurt me...memories never go away and we only suppress our feelings...the damage is irreparable and we drift in and out of that reality as we have good days and bad...there is no forgiveness and there is no forgetting.

In conclusion, I wish that the authorities would execute all sexual and physically abusive perverts so that they could never do it again...they are the ilk and repulsive pukes of this universe.

I will come back to this site and tell my story in full.

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Sep 02, 2009

I hear you...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Alexander, you certainly have a right to the rage, the hatred, the hostility. You were violated in the worst possible ways by the very adults who were in charge of keeping you safe from harm. I understand all of it oh so well. I also understand how you feel about healing and forgiveness.

I learned along my own journey that healing was possible and so was forgiveness (much to my reluctant surprise), but that it had to start within my Self because only there could I see things in a different light. Only there could I choose to overcome the adversity that I was forced to endure. Only there could I look at those obstacles as opportunities to turn pain into power. That power is within you, Alexander, but you must first choose to engage it. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me. I look forward to reading more of it in the coming days.

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Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

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Alexander, you certainly have a right to the rage, the hatred, the hostility. You were violated in the worst possible ways by the very adults who were in charge of keeping you safe from harm. I understand all of it oh so well. I also understand how you feel about healing and forgiveness. I learned along my own journey that healing was possible and so was forgiveness (much to my reluctant surprise), but that it had to start within my Self because only there could I see things in a different light. Only there could I choose to overcome the adversity that I was forced to endure. Only there could I look at those obstacles as opportunities to turn pain into power. That power is within you, Alexander, but you must first choose to engage it. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me. I look forward to reading more of it in the coming days. <a href="http://www.child-abuse-effects.com/my-story-of-abuse.html#videoreading"><img src="http://www.child-abuse-effects.com/images/Chapter12MrWhitakerSnap2.jpg" border="0" title="A Video Reading by Darlene Barriere" alt="A Video Reading by Darlene Barriere" align="left" hspace=5 vspace=5></a> Darlene Barriere Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator Author: <a href="http://www.child-abuse-effects.com/my-story-of-abuse.html" title="On My Own Terms, A Memoir">On My Own Terms, A Memoir</a>

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Sep 03, 2009

The Scars of abuse will remain if we choose not to let go of them.
by: maurice

Thank you Alexander, your story brought up similiar feelings in me. That my own story of abuse was mild compared to the many stories I have been priveledged to read since I arrived on Darlene's wonderful safe place haven site. Her vision in setting it up has given many the opportunity of getting their true and real telling of the abuse story of their chests. Her individaul comments to each one personally should hopefully help the writer to seek the neccessary help they need to let go of all the scars/marks that never heal as you say Alexander. The scars/marks of abuse especially of emotional, sexual abuse will remain if we (I) choose to hld onto them by not seeking the help required to let go of them. Action is far greater than all the words I write. I must act on the helpful advice of Darlene's words of support, encouragement, feelings, and emphaty with each one of her visitors. Her words to you Alexander are truly heartfelt ones. She say I learned along my own journey that healing was possible and so was forgiveness. ( much to my reluctant surprise)Alexander That Grandfather of yours was aided and abetted by all who seemed to have condoned his abusive behaviour. Look what they did to you by their pathetic silence. Total cowards. Yes, while you regard your story as mild you sure make the point that any level of abuse effects the innocent vunerable child/teenager/adolecent. Thank you for sharing the mess it made for you inyour life. Like wise I went through and put mysefl through alot before I began healing from my physical abuse (mild) but it sure did screw me up The emotional effects certainly remain long after the marks of the belt leather or whatever instruments used in the beatings are insignificant. The abuser never thinks of that at the time. Alexander, Always believe in yoursefl. While we are survivers of abuse it does not prevent us from living our lives to the full each day we wake up. Live well, laugh alot, Love much. Look in that mirror and Say I love me, it's OK I did many moons ago and found it absolutely positive in all aspects of love of oneself. I am certain you have a friend or two who know all you shared with us. Who value you, respect you, let them hug you in total trust of all you've shared. Hug yourself too, era go on. It's a great beginning in trusting oneself.

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Thank you Alexander, your story brought up similiar feelings in me. That my own story of abuse was mild compared to the many stories I have been priveledged to read since I arrived on Darlene's wonderful safe place haven site. Her vision in setting it up has given many the opportunity of getting their true and real telling of the abuse story of their chests. Her individaul comments to each one personally should hopefully help the writer to seek the neccessary help they need to let go of all the scars/marks that never heal as you say Alexander. The scars/marks of abuse especially of emotional, sexual abuse will remain if we (I) choose to hld onto them by not seeking the help required to let go of them. Action is far greater than all the words I write. I must act on the helpful advice of Darlene's words of support, encouragement, feelings, and emphaty with each one of her visitors. Her words to you Alexander are truly heartfelt ones. She say I learned along my own journey that healing was possible and so was forgiveness. ( much to my reluctant surprise)Alexander That Grandfather of yours was aided and abetted by all who seemed to have condoned his abusive behaviour. Look what they did to you by their pathetic silence. Total cowards. Yes, while you regard your story as mild you sure make the point that any level of abuse effects the innocent vunerable child/teenager/adolecent. Thank you for sharing the mess it made for you inyour life. Like wise I went through and put mysefl through alot before I began healing from my physical abuse (mild) but it sure did screw me up The emotional effects certainly remain long after the marks of the belt leather or whatever instruments used in the beatings are insignificant. The abuser never thinks of that at the time. Alexander, Always believe in yoursefl. While we are survivers of abuse it does not prevent us from living our lives to the full each day we wake up. Live well, laugh alot, Love much. Look in that mirror and Say I love me, it's OK I did many moons ago and found it absolutely positive in all aspects of love of oneself. I am certain you have a friend or two who know all you shared with us. Who value you, respect you, let them hug you in total trust of all you've shared. Hug yourself too, era go on. It's a great beginning in trusting oneself.

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