Child Abuse Story From Adam

by Adam
(Currently United Kingdom)

From the time I was four my dad used the belt on me. My dad was a very angry man. He grew up in a violent home and didn't appreciate it one bit. But still felt the need to be violent toward me. He mainly used his belt. There was no strategy to how he punished me. I was made to remove my shirt (and sometimes pants) and he would whip away until satisfied (which sometimes wouldn't be until I was bleeding).

There were times he used things like nunchuks (he was a sensei) or bamboo rods, and even so far as a razor strap (barbers used these to sharpen razor blades).

He often smacked an punched me for very minor offenses, and these sometimes occurred in front of friends.

When I was 14 I was sexually abused by my dad's father. So I know why my dad has so many issues, but it shouldn't be an excuse for things he's done to me.

Beatings were always paired with phrases like:
"You are bad"
"You deserve more, you're lucky I went so easy on you"
"You're weak" (when I'd cry)

He always made me feel so stupid. And when you hear things so many times, you kind of start to believe it.

I'm 19 now and haven't lived with my parents for almost 8 years. But every time I visit, I have nightmares and always feel depressed.

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