This child abuse story from Matthew page was created February 19, 2007. Installment #1 was originally posted on February 9, 2007 as story #72. Two installments of his story are included on this page:Installment #1
is from Independence, Kentucky, USA
story contains language that some may find offensive.
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to Matthew's voice and recounting of events, I've left much of the grammar and
following child abuse story from Matthew depicts sexual abuse, physical abuse
and emotional abuse.
The child abuse effects on Matthew: extremely low self-esteem, abject despair, and as a child, Kyle was an elective mute (he chose not to speak at all)
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My dad committed suicide when I was 4. He did it in front of my brother, Kyle and me.
My stepdad, Dominic, started beating the shit out of me when I was 2. I was in the hospital all the time with burns, broken bones, cuts, and all that shit. I got taken away from my parents when I was 3, and came back when I was 4.
Me and Kyle were very close. I had 5 brothers and I was an elective mute until I was 4.
My stepdad starting raping me, making my brothers watch, when I was 4 till I was 15.
My brother, John is in an institution. Kyle is dead. Simon is dead and David has a small family. I am fucked up beyond repair. No one can help me or my brothers.
is Matthew again. I'm gonna tell you the entire story.
I was 2 my stepdad would look for me. When he was mad I'd be hiding under the bed
or something and he'd drag me out.
had a brother named Mark. When I was 5 Mark was 4. Mark peed his pants because Dominic
thought it was fun making him hold it till he was crying and begging but when
he peed his pants Dominic got pissed and he called me in there and when I went
in there Mark was naked and crying he said "Matthew look what this little
fuck did" and I started crying. My mom got the hot sauce out of the
kitchen and brought it to him and he started shoving it down Mark's throat and
we were screaming and crying and Mark ran in the living room and hid under the
chair by the fireplace and Dominic ran in there and grabbed his head and
started beating it in the ground and my mom was holding me back. When he stopped,
blood was comming out of Mark's ears and Dominic was yelling for him to get up
and he wouldn't get up so he got a metal plate from the stove and beat him till
his head was all fucked up. He never went to jail.
would rape me and beat me until I would talk, he would say. But I never talked.
I only talked to Kyle.
Simon got into drugs and died from an overdose. Kyle got shot. John is schizophrenic and is never going to get better. I'm fucked up but I'll die before I go to an institution. My 2-year-old sister, Macy, is fucked up too.
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Child abuse story from Matthew was re-formatted June 5, 2015
From Victim to Victory
How I got over the devastating effects of child abuse and moved on with my life