Child Abuse Story From Marissa

by Marissa
(USA)

Child Sexual Abuse: 
I am now 15 and trying to deal with what happened...my family does not know and I am now struggling to come out with what I have kept a secret for almost seven years.

After my parents got divorced (I was eight), my mom was a single mother struggling to raise three kids on her own. Through a group call PWP (Parents without Partners) she met a man who became like an 'uncle'.

He became close to our family and was around daily. After a few months the abuse started. I don't remember exactly how it started, just that one day at his house it started.

He started to abuse me at least a few times a week. He's an ex-cop and I was scared of him so I kept it a secret and told no one.

He brought me on vacations (just me). Once we went camping for a weekend and he again, like every other time, used me like a rag doll.

I shared a room with my sister at my old house and he became so comfortable with the situation that he even molested me many times when my sister was on the other side of the room sleeping.

This went on for three years and then stopped when my mom got remarried. Now I am struggling a lot to cope and I am afraid to tell my therapist or my parents. And afraid of authorities getting involved.

Thanks for taking the time to hear my story,
Marissa

Note from Darlene: I regret that I can no longer continue the practice of commenting on visitor submissions to the degree I have in the past, as I am currently writing a book on healing from child abuse. I ask that you please read my post of June 24, 2009 titled Announcement Regarding my Comments for a complete explanation. I welcome you to follow my progress on my Facebook page at Healing from Child Abuse. When you get there, don't forget to click onto the Become a Fan link. I do hope to hear from you there.

Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited, and could result in being banned from making further comments on this site.

Child Abuse Story From Marissa Part 2

by Marissa
(US)

I am 15. I have shared part of my story on here a few months ago (see below) but I wanted to update where I am now.

I was sexually abused by my 'uncle'. It last three years. I have now been silenced for seven years.

I am working on telling my therapist but it is hard. She knows I was abused but not what type of abuse I have endured. She found this out this past Wednesday.

She told me that she would have to tell my mom if I told her that I had been abused. But I don't want my mom to know. It will make my life come crashing down if she knows. So I told my therapist that I am not ready to tell her because I still don't want my mom to know.

I know that every week that goes by I become weaker and closer to giving up. But I don't want to give up. I want a fair chance at life...a decent life.

I am very conflicted. I don't know how to get over my fear and tell her. In the past few months I have made a lot of progress with building up the strength to tell her and taking little steps.

I am terrified and I know I need to find a way to get over the fear.

Thanks for taking the time to read my story. Comments are welcomed and greatly appreciated!!

Marissa

Note from Darlene: I regret that I can no longer continue the practice of commenting on visitor submissions to the degree I have in the past, as I am currently writing a book on healing from child abuse. I ask that you please read my post of June 24, 2009 titled Announcement Regarding my Comments for a complete explanation. I welcome you to follow my progress on my Facebook page at Healing from Child Abuse. When you get there, don't forget to click onto the Become a Fan link. I do hope to hear from you there.

Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited, and could result in being banned from making further comments on this site.