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Abuse Story From H

by H - Otherwise, Name Undisclosed
(Location Undisclosed)

when i was in first or second grade a boy named j- put his hands down my pants at reading time and he would rub my back. it made me so uncomfortable and i would start crying but i never told any of my teachers what happened. in fifth grade i was the happiest kid in the world i had an awesome teacher who was so fun! but it all went downhill when j- came back to our school he left in 3rd grade but came back in 5th and he tried to kiss me i said no but he didnt listen and he stuck his hands down my pants and kissed me. then at recess one day he showed me his penis i was so scared as he rubbed it against my stomach and put his hand up my shirt then down my pants. after that i was glued to my teachers side and i stopped wearing skirts but sometimes i would wear dresses because if you wear a dress you got to sit on chairs during reading time and he couldnt touch me. now im going into 7th grade and i still havent told any one but one time in sixth grade he pushed me against a wall and kissed and humped me i was so terrified i spent twenty minutes in a bathroom stall crying before going back to class and during summer break i was riding my bike when i saw him i tried to ride away but he pushed me off my bike and got on top of me i dont even want to say what he did but when he finished he got close to my ear and whispered " i swear if you tell it'll be worse next time" then he stood up and said " clean yourself up and remember what i told you" then winked at me and rode away on his bike.

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Sep 21, 2011

To H:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Tell your parents! And keep telling until you get the help you need. This boy has gone from being what is called a sexually intrusive child to a sex offender, and he will not stop until he is made to stop. That means you have to tell. You are in danger of being repeatedly assaulted by him, but nothing can change until you speak up. Don't keep the secret, H. Your parents are there to keep you safe from harm, but they can't do anything to protect you unless you tell. This boy is deeply troubled, and he's a coward, preying on those who can't protect themselves. And there's a good chance he has other victims. But the most important person right now is YOU. You didn't say where you live. If you're in the USA, contact Child Help at 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) in order to talk to someone about what you are still dealing with. They are staffed 24/7 with professionally trained counsellors who will listen to you. They are not a reporting agency. Visit their website by copying & pasting the following URL into your browser: http://www.childhelp.org/get_help

If you don't live in the USA, but in one of the areas listed on my stories page, contact the appropriate hotline that is listed there in order to talk to someone confidentially.

You don't deserve to be mistreated. You most certainly deserve help for the fact that you are being mistreated. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Sep 21, 2011

Tell everyone!
by: Jill

H,

I'm so sorry you have to deal with this kid. I agree with Darlene, he really has a serious behavior problem. When people do this type of thing they see their victim as an object, not a person. Realize he's mentally in his own fantasy world and thinks he's like a god with magic powers. Of course you can see how silly that is because all people are equal, but he really can't when he's in this state. He's targeting you because since 2nd grade you've frozen like a stunned bunny in the headlights of an oncoming truck. My daughter just finished 7th grade and has trouble speaking up too. Being 13 can feel like you're under a microscope. Years ago I was a stunned bunny and was sexually abused from 1 to 20 because of it. I wasn't able to recall the abuse until later when I was an adult.

I'm so glad you are able to remember now and act on it while it's still new in your memory.

As awful as it feels, please be brave and tell everyone what this guy is doing. You have a fabulous memory and explained yourself in your story so well. So far you've shared your experience here and the people who support this site will be 100% behind you. Hey that's a lot of people!!! Imagine everyone standing with you when you report this guy. He has no right to touch your body, ever. No one does! If you stay silent, you are stuck in a prison. Validate yourself that this is real and it's your right to end the abuse. Adults will listen, and if some don't, don't let that stop you, keep telling. Your power lies in your voice. Meanwhile, don't go anywhere alone, be with people who can witness his behavior. If he comes up to you, yell, scream and name the behavior!

My daughter and I will be rooting for you.

Sep 21, 2011

Please Tell
by: Carrie

Hi H,

I was you, I had a boy tormenting me,sexually assulting and abusing me from the time I was 10-14 I did tell but no one listened. I wish I would have kept telling until someone did...if you do you will find relief...you will be able to have this guy stopped and you will get the help you need before it affects the rest of your life in a negative way. You don't deserve any of this and you didn't do anything wrong. It is very likely that this boy is doing it to others and just as likely that the same thing is happening to him by someone in Power in his life. We do all stand behind you here and you deserve better, your life is precious.

Sep 21, 2011

Please tell. You will get the help you deserve.
by: Aysiah (Asia)

Hey, H. This is horrible. I can't even imagine some of what you may be thinking...I want you to know your not alone. Im 13 and have problems some what similar to this. If you cant get anyone at home to listen, go to your school counselor. That is what they are there for. I am SO sorry you would have to deal with something like this. It's horrible and no one should have too. Please do know you have ways out. Good luck,

Love,
Aysiah.

Sep 22, 2011

You are so Brave: I really belive this is a turning for the good in your life
by: maurice

To H I am Beautiful both inside and out: I am brvae: I had the courage to search for and find Darlene's Safe Haven Site: A family of friends who feel for you, who understand and empathise with you in what that BOY did to you: He sure was a sicko, a molester, a disrespector of your person and dignity as a growing child in your tender years of innocence and vunerability: He was a naughy, bad, boy in the things he did to you: You were afraid to tell like most of us who were abused as children: Have courage NOW: share what you have written here with a true friend, a teacher, a counsellor, a family member who you trust: Who will listen and hear your story: Name him, so that other girls don't suffer at his molesting hands: He knew what he was doing so don't you be feeling sorry for him: Children can be very cruel to each other (some) do bad things to each other: H you are very intelligent: Stay in education: Surround yourself with at least 1/2 friends your own age and gender: (Important) This will enable you to talk out your true feelings to them (the intimate) stuff that girls share with each other: Read Darlene's comment: and indeed the other comments from Carrie and Jill both able to empatise with you as young women: Now H get out and about taking part in TEAM sports with your own age and gender: At school take part in the Physioal Education Program: This will deffineately help you to have a Healthy Mind in A Healthy Body: Be gentle and kind on yourself and with that body of yours: Look in the mirror and hug and cuddle LOVE into it: Soothe from time to time with those scented oils and soaps: H you'll be fine: ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF: Read Darlene's comment and act on her loving, encourageing, affirming words to YOU from her heart: I WILL: I CAN: I MUST: Simply because I AM WORTH IT:

Oct 02, 2011

COURAGE TO TELL
by: MICHELLE

Hello H,

I agree you must tell someone regarding this individual. He is becoming a full fledged sex offender, and you so need to be protected. You deserve to feel safe. He is bullying you and crossing so many boundaries. I can so relate to your situation. It happened to me when I was your age. Not just one but a few. Speak out about it. Share with a trusted adult. You deserve to feel safe and empowered. Speaking about what he has done to you will be a step in the right direction.

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